u/nonnetstarrr

There's this girl we'll call aria, and I don't know if I have like.. a CRUSH on her, but her and I are so awkward together but like considering our alternative schooling, there isn't many people and so it's SO MUCH MORE AWKWARD.. SINCE WE'RE FRIENDS.. I GUESS...

for more context, in 16m and she's 17, I've done alternative schooling in different places all of highschool due to like low attendance. And so I've never really been in mainstream with a lot of people, being used to very small classrooms, and if the people are lame, I suppose no human interaction. But there's a girl called Evie who goes to this small school too that I used to know from a different alternative school, she's like cool I suppose, not exactly my kinda vibe fully but I can talk to her so it's alright. Especially considering I know nobody! And since they're both girls like the same age (oh yeah Evie is 17 too) she instantly talked to aria when they first met, and like aria is kinda awkward but she's like super cool.

She's like ACTUALLY interesting, she's into fashion like I am, she's into that more goth/alternative fashion vibe which while I'm different, my suburb is LAME and i didn't even really know anybody here cared about that kinda stuff! And so she's hella cool, she likes skating too which I like, and overall she's just INTERESTING.. any day Evie doesn't come though we like TALK... BUT BRO ITS SO AWKWARD WITHOUT LIKE EVIE AS A MIDDLE PERSON

It's just because we're awkward people, we both like want to say things but can't, one time I actually was talking to her for a while and we actually went out after school for ages! And we're just talking for a ton. Was it a little awkward... VERY.. but I'm glad we did..

It's just so weird because anytime I go to school now, I'm just TOO AWKWARD TO SIT NEXT TO HER OR KNOW WHAT TO SAY, so we both awkwardly like smiler and wave, maybe dap up, THEN I SIT SOMEWHERE ELSE😭😭😭😭 AHHHHHHHHHH

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Okay, so I'm a 16 year old male, and my local skatepark has a very low skater scene.. basically none, just me, my brother and a few of his friends. Nobody really skates here! It's usually scooter kids which is fine, I just put my headphones on and ignore people. But since I'm a regular people naturally know me. I never try talk to anyone at the skate park and simply come to better myself and get out the house since I love skating!

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Somewhat recently theses been this kid called Maxwell who is like 14 or something, and I don't go to school and so I don't know a whole lot of people outside the skatepark, and this Maxwell guy is like the epitome of an ironic "wannabe tuff kid", to a kinda crazy degree. Like he'd walk past people and call them the hard r, be extremely hostile, like swear at them for no reason, and TO PEOPLE HE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW...?? Very strange dude. And he used to be quite annoying but like I never really payed much attention, and there's another like kid I think 14 too called chase. He's just a lame guy, he always used to want my attention which is chill and all, but for some reason those 2 people have been HELLA on my ass recently.

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THE ISSUE..:

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Like a week and a half ago I was at the skatepark at night and only Maxwell, chase and I were there. I was doing my own thing and they were just being bored sitting around on the other side of the skatepark, because literally everybody comes to my local to just be loud and obnoxious but me, so when nobody's there, they get bored.. anyway.. they came over to me and were being really like hostile and weird. Then after calling me like the n word and stuff and a bunch of kinda weird stuff (I'm like mixed btw), they were like "we're throwing rocks at the light", because there was a light near where I was skating, but they were clearly throwing it like just at me. Then after, they stopped making excuses and straight up just started throwing hella huge rocks at me for 0 reason, I never said anything , and they hit my board a ton, even me once, and the thing that annoyed me the most, was the Maxwell kid whispered to the chase kid "let's throw rocks on the ground where he's skating so he can't skate" and I'm ngl... That really kinda hit me hard, because Incase you don't know, skateboard wheels are hard, and so small rocks actually straight up just stop the board in its tracks. So skaters are always very weary of them. And they straight up just threw a TON of rocks in my way, at me, and at my board so I couldn't skate.

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I dipped later and figured it's whatever. But I came back like a week later and they did the exact same thing, this time the chase kid like brang his brother, but he's like young, lowkey like 8. But the thing is I CANT TELL IF IN CRAZY?? they're young kids just looking for attention but I feel ridiculous for being so bothered? Like they're Literally throwing rocks at me constantly so I can't even just vibe and do my thing, and theyre like yelling tge mist vile stuff to me.

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I don't know how to feel.. I don't think I can just wait it out, but I just want to skate, it's like my main active hobby and I genuinely love skateboarding, and for some reason they simply are too bored and losery to allow me to just have my fun...

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And I know some people would be like "oh, kids who have never been punched in the face", and trust me, VERY CORRECT.. they speak and act as though theyve testee people forever and keep getting more and more intense, expecting nothing bad. But I can't do anything to them, because think about it. Even though I'd be able to beat their ass if it's just 1 of them, I'm not tryna have some like wannabe tuff guy bring a bunch of people or have a REASON to like have been with me if that makes sense.. I've always been like good and never affiliated with that kinda stuff, and so it's just not an option to get annoyed and do anything to them because id hate to somehow of never went to highschool, and so the easier way to AVOID DRAMA.. and somehow have enemies in my suburb, JUST because of that. Definitely wouldn't solve the issue...

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I'm seriously ranting and I've writ this so messily and badly, I'm sorry.. I do seriously kinda want to hear people's thoughts on what I could possibly do, because I'm really not sure. Feels like my safe haven for years is like a no go zone, by people who don't even actually use the skatepark..