u/noriseaweed

I come from a background of mathematics and science in school and a near oppresively Christian household growing up to the point much of my personal interests and the interests my family tried to impose on me left me very unfulfilled in my understanding of either. I've always had a fascination with understanding how things work and both the realms mentioned try to explain that in different ways, but it wasn't until fairly recently I started looking into classical esoteric practices from alchemy to Thelma and overall 'witchy' culture hat i feel ive started to see a happy marriage of the material and metaphysical. I am endlessly fascinated by all aspects of life from art to history to math to theology and relating the intertwined endeavors of all those fields to something like the creation of the Philosophers Stone connects eerily well in my understanding. I was in a bad place for a very long time due to life, medication, so many things I now see as my stage of nigredo in life. And now that those unwanted elements have been shed I feel much more capable of imposing my will into what I want to see happen. Tempering my mind, body and spirit with further learning, further exercise and further freedom to do what I want to do and be what I want to be regardless of, but conscious of, the suppression in my current situation. I am not beholdant to the demands of any will but my own and what I want is to walk upon lead and leave gold in my wake. And ever since viewing the world and myself through this lense I feel as though I am better for it. I was just curious how others saw the study and practice of these aspects and if anyone had similar experiences to myself. I've neglected community for so long but there's no better time to start than now

I picked up a Kindle 7 9th Gen from goodwill for 10 bucks, great condition, and I want to use it for books (and internet if possible) but I want it to forget it's an Amazon product. I want to uninstall whatever it's running on, install something else that won't keep asking me to connect to Amazon and just make it a default tablet that I can fill with pdfs and music like it was a flash drive with a screen. If I can do that without interrupting wifi and Bluetooth because idk how proprietary the hardware is then great, but if I need to sacrifice it with the old OS so I can put my offline books on it than I'll live.

What are the words I use to search for how to do this? It's not a jailbreak but is there a method i can search thats more streamlined than how im making it sound?

Fluid, kinda newly "out" but I'm not telling everyone in my life for the usual reasons. I'm trying to get more comfortable with presenting femme when it feels right with makeup, voice and growing my hair out again. Nail polish has been a staple for a few months now and I'm moving into brighter colors and designs, but I got kinda intimidated at work the other day when a customer was very performatively confused that "a boy had nail polish on" and i played it cool imo but he comes by a lot and the more I push the needle the more risky it feels but the more I want to stay strong

What if, if it comes to it and I get cornered on the transgender thing (stronger possibility in my part of the country) I claim that I'm genetically intersex and try to just overwhelm them with information? It isn't a perfect solution but I feel like if I were to come at them with just overwhelming positivity while I describe androreceptors and karyotypes that would at least get them to stop asking questions if not lighten up. What's the play here?