I've got to know if theres someone out there that thinks the same way I do
Do you ever become so physically aware of your surroundings that you fall into an existential crisis? Like the way the sun leaks through the leaves, or the laughter of complete strangers beside you, or the sounds of leaves colliding against eachother from the wind. I do. I experience what it means to be human on almost a daily-basis, and it leaves me awake at night. To describe the reasoning of the existential crisis is almost impossible. I just think about how beautiful the world is, and how I want to become so much- and I will, but I also think about the fact that some people on this earth don't see it to it's full potential and I feel sorry for them. I think about some of the bad things in life- like most of us have to work a 9-5 for the rest of our lives, rather then truly experiencing earth. Sometimes it brings me to tears. If I could just know that atleast one other person out there felt the same way I did, I wouldn't feel so alone, and scared. Because although the thoughts are beautiful- they are also terrifying at the same time- especially being the age of 17. Any advice, relatableness, or even defintions of what it is i'm actually experiencing would be greatly appriciated. Thank you for your time.