u/nyxleaf

I recently graduated and joined my first job as a Technical Assistant Engineer in the research department of an agricultural university. The project mainly involves research work, and when I accepted the job, nothing was mentioned about doing manual field labor.

Recently, my boss has been asking me to help the field assistant remove grass and weeds from the medicinal plant research plots. I understand that fieldwork is a part of agriculture, and I don't think there's anything wrong with the work itself. My problem is that I feel uncomfortable because students are around and they see me doing it. It makes me feel embarrassed and anxious.

My family's financial situation isn't good, so quitting isn't an easy option. At the same time, I want to continue preparing for higher studies and build my career.

I'm confused. Should I ignore how I feel, continue this job, and focus on my studies? Or should I start looking for another job where the responsibilities match what I was hired for?

Has anyone else experienced something similar? I'd really appreciate honest advice.

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After my mom passed away, my siblings and I went to live with our uncle and aunt. In the beginning, my aunt seemed kind, and I truly believed we had found a safe place.

But over time, things changed.

She says hurtful things to us, treats us badly, and sometimes even takes food away from us. The worst part is that she only does these things when my uncle isn't around. If anyone tells him what happened, she immediately denies everything and says we're making it up. Then the three of us end up looking like liars, and my uncle believes her instead.

It's such a helpless feeling. You're already grieving the loss of your mother, and then you're constantly made to question yourself because the person hurting you always looks innocent to everyone else.

We don't want to create drama or fight with anyone. We just want someone to believe us. But after being called liars over and over again, it feels like nothing we say matters anymore.

Has anyone lived through something like this? How did you cope when the person hurting you was always the one everyone believed?

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I'm a pretty introverted person. The weird thing is, I always feel like I have so much to say. I think about things a lot, and in my head everything makes sense. But when it comes to actually speaking or writing it down, my mind just goes blank.

It's like all those thoughts disappear the moment I try to express them. Even writing this feels frustrating because I know I'm not saying exactly what I mean.

Does anyone else deal with this? If you managed to get better at expressing yourself, what helped?