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I simply cannot comprehend the fact that there is no God. Whoever this God is, 'they' allowed whatever's happening in the world to happen.

I've been a Muslim for my whole life, so as far as I know, Islam makes the most sense out of all. There are just a few questionable rules.. and I hope to find my answers here.

Why do women have to wear the hijab? & why just us??

Why is wlw and mlm forbidden? Cuz how does LOVING someone affect those around..?

& does the religion truly favor men in a way?

Is the religion homophobic?

Does it support slavery?

Does it support feminism?

I love my religion. I truly do.. but there are just so many questionable things about it. I always tend to cry my heart out late at night due to the amount of hatred I get simply for following it. I go to sleep questioning so many rules.. yet there are no answers. I always wonder, what is it that keeps me going as a Muslim? I love Allah. I've been a Muslim since day one. It's just.. I'm a confused, foolish teenager. I am certain there is God, and he allowed all of this to happen. I'm this 🤏 close to leaving. I've always liked women and it's forbidden. I'm sosososososo confused. Is it the fear of the unknown that keeps me going? Am I a coward? Help me.

I simply cannot comprehend the fact that there is no God. Whoever this God is, 'they' allowed whatever's happening in the world to happen.

I've been a Muslim for my whole life, so as far as I know, Islam makes the most sense out of all. There are just a few questionable rules.. and I hope to find my answers here.

Why do women have to wear the hijab?

Why is wlw and mlm forbidden?

& does the religion truly favor men in a way?

I'm a teenager figuring her stuff out. Now, tell me, aside from answering my other questions, what religion do YOU think is the truth, and why?

& if there is no God, how did we even come to exist? How does Atheism make sense?

I simply cannot comprehend the fact that there is no God. Whoever this God is, 'they' allowed whatever's happening in the world to happen.

I've been a Muslim for my whole life, so as far as I know, Islam makes the most sense out of all. There are just a few questionable rules.. and I hope to find my answers here.

Why do women have to wear the hijab?

Why is wlw and mlm forbidden?

& does the religion truly favor men in a way?

I'm a teenager figuring her stuff out. Now, tell me, aside from answering my other questions, what religion do YOU think is the truth, and why?

& if there is no God, how did we even come to exist? How does Atheism make sense?

This may sound a bit silly.. it's an online crush (I KNOW, I KNOW!!)

⚠️ This is some teenage bs, kindly gimme advice

I'm a teenager female trying to figure her stuff out + English isn't my first language, bear with me.

I wanna get rid of this foolish crush soo bad. She's a woman, whose a teenager as well and a bit older than me. I don't know how she looks, or how she even sounds. This is absurd, I know, and what pisses me off is that I know this is wrong and should NOT be affecting me the way it is.

Storytime, I downloaded a new game which requires you to interact with other players for certain rewards. It's kinda like a social media platform (Profile likes, DOB, etc..) except you don't post or whatever. There's this world chat feature where we met, she was kinda rude alongside another dude.. and I got so nauseous from it, I lost my appetite for a week lol. I usually had my way around ingame, so it was a bit hard trying to give back proper rebuttals.

Anyhow, we (me and the girl I 'like') managed to connect on insta via some other person, cuz we all found a bunch of common interests. & eventually we joined a discord community. Most of the conversations I have with her make me feel like I come off as desperate.. like I wanna impress and glaze her so bad.

Remember when I said "affecting me"? I meant it as in I actually started to skip meals cuz I'm lost in thought about it, ignored the people around me, and did WHATEVER I could to seem interesting to her. This game's been around for some time, & she's a pretty old player.. so in this world chat, I feel like she gets along with EVERYONE. There are so many people which she seems actually interested in..

I don't know why I 'like' her, but honestly.. is it the validation that I'm seeking? Yk the urge to prove yourself to someone who doesn't give two shots about you? Is it the texting style which makes her seem like a closed, 'cool' person? Whenever I get even the slightest bit of attention from her, or get ignored for over 10 mins, I lose it. & throughout those 10 mins I'd be analyzing everything I've said 50 billion times.

What do I doooo? I just wanna live my life and focus on reality rather than this one-sided, parasocial, ONLINE bs. I wanna get her off my mind.