u/oooT_Tooo

I know it's wrong. I'm shameful to admit it. But whenever I see a person doing something I would be embarassed of doing, I feel a lot of disgust for that person. Even if they are just being themselves, doing nothing wrong. Just living their life. I don't know how to get rid of this feeling.

I have internalised a lot of shame. I am always conscious of the judgement of people. So when someone does not feel the same level of embarassment as me for doing something 'cringe', I ask to myself why the hell would they do this?

I know rhat we can never please everyone and nothing is truly cringe. But still, I confess I have a visceral reaction towards 'cringiness'.

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Okay this is serious, I desperately need some queer freinds in my boring ass life😩. Everywhere I go I just see normies. Where are the gays? The bisexuals? The dolls?😭 I think we should start our own cult😈 no heteros will be allowed❌🙅🏻‍♀️⚔️ jk...

Any queer person is invited in my DM's! We should be slaying together my gyals and gays🧜🏻‍♀️💅🏻

I grew up as a heterosexual in a conservative family. For context I'm 21F. For the most of my life I thought I was straight. I have not been in a relationship yet. But for some time now, I have been constantly thinking about how amazing it would be to be in a relationship with a woman.

I feel like I'm a poser. I find many women attractive. Seeing the unclothed bodies of women does get me excited a lot since I was a teenager. But I'm more sexually attracted to men than women. One of the reasons for this change in my life might be due to getting to know about the violence caused by men towards women.(Please don't judge me I can't word this better I'm so overwhelmed right now). I'd love to be with a woman but I question myself is it really due to attraction towards women or the fear and distrust towards men? I really don't know and I don't wanna come across as a poser. I wanna be respectful of this community and not come across as someone who's just doing it for attention.