With the tragic news that has come to light today, I'd like to express my feelings here
I don't mean to pry but it's been on my mind all day at work and I feel the need to put it in writing. And here is probably the best place. It will be long but it will make me feel better.
Flashback to summer 2017, when I'm off school and visiting family overseas. I'm spending time with my cousins and they put on the PS4 to play Until Dawn, which was a free game at the time. By this point, my prior gaming interest had plummeted and I hadn't even turned a console on in several years; I just had a seven year old Xbox 360 with no interest in upgrading. So I'm not playing Until Dawn here but happy to watch to kill time.
We finish the game after a couple nights, after which the Until Dawn becomes one of my focal interests just like that. Watching it through, I was immensely impressed with the graphics, the gameplay features (the butterfly effect predominantly) and the story as a whole. It's not Shakespeare level writing, but it was my first exposure to it at such a level in a video game.
Come Christmas, my parents get me a PS4 and this game to accompany it; I played it more or less nightly and platinumed the game within a month. As a child I would play games to have fun, now I started to learn that these games could bring incredible stories and poignant characters to life.
After this I developed a strong passion for single player story-driven games; Uncharted, The Last of Us, Red Dead Redemption to name a few, and all of these games have given me memories and emotions that I had never experienced with a controller in my hands.
But all of this wouldn't have come to be without the catalyst; Until Dawn. And I must say predominantly, Hayden Panettiere.
There's a good argument that Sam is probably the most popular character amongst the fan base, even if she isn't your favourite it's hard to dislike her. She treats everyone with compassion, puts herself in danger with bravery if needed and she holds her beliefs strongly and doesn't let anyone's opinions sway her away from them. So naturally, Sam has been my favourite of the group ever since I played this for the first time. Plus with her being the first playable character (minus the prologue) and the last playable one too, I was able to connect with her more than all the others.
But all of this is thanks to the strong performance given by Panettiere. If you watch the behind the scenes interviews with the cast, you can tell that she really gets into playing Sam and is able to relate to her in multiple ways. That alone is quite nice to see. As I said this game doesn't have a groundbreaking story, but Panettiere does more than enough to give a believable performance to a fantastic character.
I hope this post isn't taken wrongly, I understand it's more related to the character over the actress that we have ultimately lost, but as I said I had to get this written down for my own sake. It's just starting to hit me now that we have lost a fantastic human being at far too young an age.
Until Dawn will always hold a special place in my heart, and Samantha Giddings will always be remembered personally as one of the first characters who I really grew a connection towards, one which I feel like I've been carrying nearly a decade later.
Rest in peace, Hayden Panettiere.