u/otherteaa

I was supposed to go on a day tour to Malacca today.
However I decided to get off the bus when we were at berjaya waiting for the last tourist to join. I’m dealing with period pain, the entire bus was full of old people (60+, I’m 29) and I felt very out of place and lonely. The tour guide did say it would be a lot of walking and I was already uncomfortable and in pain. So I made a decision and got off.

The day is still long. What should I do? I’m not really into malls. What are things you think I should do? I will do some shopping but after that I don’t know. I like cafes, bookstores, culture etc.

Any tips ?

Also pls tell me I’m not missing out too much by not going 😭

Hi, 29, solo traveling for the first time in Asia. I had a rough start with PMS, jet lag and migraines. Today I came out and I did have a good day but sometimes I feel so lonely. I see couples everywhere. I’m enjoying myself but also feel so alone. I have a few meet ups planned so I’m excited for that. But gosh sometimes the knot in my stomach gets so tight. Solo travel was never my preference but I want to do things out of my comfort zone, I’m independent and do tons of things alone but this is obviously next level.

I’m not doing months long travel (3 weeks left) but it feels daunting when I feel low. Any uplifting advice or words welcome :)

Like, I’m born and here and there’s nothing to do about it except kill myself which I won’t

I objectively don’t have a bad life and I try to show gratitude as much as I can. However I have NEVER in my 29 yrs loved life. And now that my deepest wish isn’t fulfilled and probably won’t be in the foreseeable future it seems pointless

I’ve always felt things deeply and I’m very sensitive to the world, to my inner processes. I overthink, always have. I do really try to be a good person for everyone around me. And I do try to worship Allah as best as I can.

I practice and I do sincerely believe but I’m just not wanting this thing. We’re all creations, just little machines. There’s nothing unique or special about you or me.

I find myself wishing for death but then of course because I’m a human programmed in a certain way (survival) I don’t actually want to die and I get scared for example when flying. Isn’t that hilarious?

Excuse the bitter voice. I’m sad and tired. Depressed or whatever. Idk. Just really struggling to enjoy life.

Please don’t bring me the whole this world is a prisoner for the believer thing. If doesn’t help. I believe in the afterlife but in an abstract way you know?

29 here.

Part of me is relieved. I finally get what’s “wrong with me”. Another part is deeply sad, knowing I’ll never truly fit in the way I’ve been craving all my life.

What about you?

Ever since I was young my deepest wish was to find someone who understood me. Growing up in a home where I wasn’t see or understood and sensing I was different. I’m now in stage of life at almost I have to accept it might never happen and realistically that’s probably my fate (Im not undesirable, I simply can’t see it working out for me and finding someone for me. My love life always has been nearly non existent)

It’s causing me deep sadness... I don’t know how to cope. I’m not desperate and have built a life of my own but this is eating away at me and every few weeks the sadness overwhelms me to the point of panic attack.

I’ve been reading a lot of advice and people say you have to detach from the outcome and realize that even when you’re alone for the rest of your life you will be okay and be at peace with Allahs will.. unfortunately that’s exactly where I struggle. I just can’t seem to let it go.. I’m not obsessively thinking about it but some days I get triggered and will be so sad.. I want to be okay with whatever He has in store for me but this particular scenario I just can’t accept (yet). I try to and then my body rejects it and I will get a huge wave of sadness + panic attack.

I’m a woman btw.

these feelings actually got worse after I had a beautiful experience, where I really thought that after so many years of nothing and no one it was finally my turn.. only for that person to not be able to step up (partly due to their life circumstances).. I have prayed on it so I assume it was the outcome of my prayers too but it hurt so much knowing that even when the unlikely happened it still didn’t work out