Drawn to Quakerism
Hello. I'm a practicing Roman Catholic currently going through a crisis of faith, not in my belief of God, but I'm experiencing some disillusionment with the church.
I wasn't always Catholic either, my mother was raised Catholic and I eventually found my way to it through the Occult oddly enough (it's a long story). Anyway, I first learned about the Quakers when I was doing some genealogy research a few years back and found that a large branch of my family were Rhode Island Quakers banished from the Massachusetts Bay Colony, I became very interested in their beliefs and admired their practices and history.
Fast-forward to today, I recently started working for the church in the parish office, I'm grateful for the opportunity and it's rewarding, but after interacting with so many parishioners, I never realized just how divided Catholics really are, it's very toxic, I've heard and witnessed some concerning things that have made me start to rethink my relationship to the church.
I have since found deep comfort in learning more about the Quaker way, it feels spiritually liberating but I have a hard time thinking about the possibility of leaving the church and the implications it would have on my conscience, and the possibility that I could be walking away from the truth and thus be considered an apostate.