u/paradoxelia

I’m about 5'6, 126 lbs, with a really slim waist/stomach but a wide back and arm size. My chest is more prominent than my stomach meaning if i stand up, my chest bulges out alot more than my stomach. . I’ve always wondered—what kind of first impression do you think someone with my build gives off? How do people usually interpret a guy with my kind of frame? People stare and its starting to make me feel weird are they admiring or thinking i have some sickness?

Was walking to college some random dude said he would rape me if no 1 was around. I'm male, didnt really react was kinda occupied getting to class.

Alot of people were around he kind of just walked passed me and whispered it. But its NYC no 1 cares about anyone. Not sure if I should've done anything

He was a random much older adult not a college student.....

Last week I decided to test people’s humanity to see what kindness, generosity, and compassion actually get you in the real world. I’ve always had a hard time believing there’s real good in people people so I decided to put that belief to the test and force myself to see it with my own eyes.

I loaned money to six people who told me they were struggling, down bad, and needed help. I didn’t pressure them, didn’t demand anything upfront, and even let most of them choose their own repayment terms and interest. I trusted their word. Not a single person paid me back(ID verified, Pay stub, live pic etc)

I spent my week volunteering at a homeless shelter, giving my time, energy, and effort to help people who needed it. I donated food, bought meals for strangers, carried boxes, cleaned, stayed late, listened to people talk about their pain, and did what I could without asking for anything in return. I wasn’t met with warmth. I wasn’t met with gratitude. I wasn’t even met with the kind of humanity people love to preach about.

I opened doors for people. Checked in on people who said they were struggling. Helped people who had nothing to offer me. Gave rides. Sent money. Offered advice. Answered calls I didn’t need to answer. Put my own time and peace aside to be there for people.

What I wanted to test was simple: when people receive kindness, do they return it? When someone helps you with no hidden motive, does humanity show itself?

I’m not upset by any of this, if anything i am relieved because it validated and reinforced the kind of man I want to become as I grow older. I am on the right path.

I(M) often time get this comment from strangers, I am not sure what it means/ how to interprete it ?