u/paul41215

I literally need out of nowhere injected into my veins…

I’m looking for an artist to build on my leg tattoos, I’m looking for an artist that’s good with patchwork. Thanks!

I’m about 7 months post me finding out my ex cheated on me. We were in an on/off situationship from Feb 2023-April 2025 and then we finally started dating. I wanted to break up with him in October 2025 because there was some stuff he promised to work on that he didn’t. He begged me to stay and give him another chance (despite giving him lots of chances), I stayed and then in December I found out he cheated on me in November. When I first found out he gave me a story to soften the blow, begged me to stay, said he was going to k*ll himself. I reached out to the guy he cheated on me with and got a whole different story with screenshots. When I confronted my ex, he went 180° on me, blew up on me because I was “crazy” for reaching out to the guy. Since then, the only conversation we’ve had have just been legal matters that are now resolved but no conversations with accountability taken.

My biggest struggle is understanding why he would beg me to stay only to cheat on me. He knew my dad cheated on my mom, and last year his mom was seeing a “male friend” behind his dad’s back. He knew the damage that cheating causes yet he still willingly did it. I didn’t want to break up with him because I didn’t love him, I wanted to marry this man and raise kids with him but I needed him to show up as a better partner. He does have BPD and addictive habits that he fails to prioritize (part of the reason why I wanted to end the relationship).

It sucks because he was my best friend and I thought we were going to end up together but on the other hand I dealt with so much lust in the 3 years of knowing him.

I guess my question is, how do you proceed in your love life? I’ve gone out with other guys but nothing feels the same and I feel like my guard is so high because I’m scared of getting cheated on again. I know there is a guy out there that will treat me right but this just SUCKS. My sad moments are a lot less frequent than they were a couple of months ago but sometimes I’ll see my ex in public and my body just fills with anger, confusion, sadness, and disgust.

I’m about 7 months post me finding out my ex cheated on me. We were in an on/off situationship from Feb 2023-April 2025 and then we finally started dating. I wanted to break up with him in October 2025 because there was some stuff he promised to work on that he didn’t. He begged me to stay and give him another chance (despite giving him lots of chances), I stayed and then in December I found out he cheated on me in November. When I first found out he gave me a story to soften the blow, begged me to stay, said he was going to k*ll himself. I reached out to the guy he cheated on me with and got a whole different story with screenshots. When I confronted my ex, he went 180° on me, blew up on me because I was “crazy” for reaching out to the guy. Since then, the only conversation we’ve had have just been legal matters that are now resolved but no conversations with accountability taken.

My biggest struggle is understanding why he would beg me to stay only to cheat on me. He knew my dad cheated on my mom, and last year his mom was seeing a “male friend” behind his dad’s back. He knew the damage that cheating causes yet he still willingly did it. I didn’t want to break up with him because I didn’t love him, I wanted to marry this man and raise kids with him but I needed him to show up as a better partner. He does have BPD and addictive habits that he fails to prioritize (part of the reason why I wanted to end the relationship).

It sucks because he was my best friend and I thought we were going to end up together but on the other hand I dealt with so much lust in the 3 years of knowing him.

I guess my question is, how do you proceed in your love life? I’ve gone out with other guys but nothing feels the same and I feel like my guard is so high because I’m scared of getting cheated on again. I know there is a guy out there that will treat me right but this just SUCKS. My sad moments are a lot less frequent than they were a couple of months ago but sometimes I’ll see my ex in public and my body just fills with anger, confusion, sadness, and disgust.