u/playful_faun

I'm safe at the moment, but I'm just temporarily staying with a friend. To be as vague as possible I'm a tennant renting a room from family with a history of violence. I'm a disabled adult. I don't have an option to stay in the home peacefully anymore.

I've already called Adult Protective Services for myself and Child Protective Services because there are children in the home. My therapist is working on helping me file for disability and I'm on lists for low income housing.

I've also left messages with a couple local groups that say they help with independent living.

I'm in my 30s and I've never lived by myself. I've never been alone for more than 24 hours. I don't know anything about this whole legal process or what to do. I want to try to get an outdoor storage unit to keep my things in instead of leaving them in the room I'm renting.

I'm autistic and I'm terrified of how everything is changing and I'm upset that my family is so willing to hurt me. I keep thinking that I can just say "you're breaking the law. This is abuse" and they'll get it and treat me normal. I have a pet snake that my brother is going to come and take for me, but I'm a mess.

Has anyone been through this and gotten out that can give me some kind words or advice on next steps? Thankfully they've put openly in text over and over again details of being abusive so I have proof if it ever comes to court.

Mostly I don't want to be a burden on my friend now and I'm terrified that she's going to also end up hating and abusing me even though she's so kind. I want to get independent and on my own but I'm a mess and so scared.

Side-note, but any tips on how to show my friend how grateful I am? I've helped with gardening and her dogs and I'm cleaning a lot and she keeps telling me that i don't have to and she cried and kept thanking me for helping, but she's the one helping me and I really want to make sure she knows I really care about it.

I'm an adult. I've never lived in a home that isn't abusive. Moved out of my ex's and with my dad. He doesn't believe in mental illness. He keeps trying to get me to stop taking Adderall and thinks I'm lying about my autism diagnosis to "feel special". His wife treats me like shit. I tell them screaming at me is triggering and I'm going to freak the hell out and panic. She screams at me over everything. From silence to screaming. Over stupid shit. I ask if she's gonna finish laundry. Screaming.

Today she had my dad call me to complain that I did laundry before she could do 4 MORE loads. I went downstairs and she immediately starts screaming about how she has a family and needs to do everyone's laundry before they go to school and work tomorrow. She actually jumped up off the couch at me like she was going to physically fight me. Then when I left the house she stood on the porch screaming at me to never come back. I'm done.

I told my dad that she is treating me so badly that I find myself hoping that she will just die so that I never have to be around her again. And he flipped out. Said I threatened to murder her. I explained that I just don't want her to exist in my life in any form. I can't stand being around her. I don't want to hurt her. I've never fought anyone even.

But he said that he has disowned me and that I'm a disgusting and evil person. I pay rent and I'm trying to leave ASAP instead of continuing to work on disability with my therapist. But I've never spent more than 24 hours alone in my life. I've never been responsible for a household. I'm terrified.

I hate that I always feel like if I'm just honest about how I feel that people will get it. And looking back, I get it. But I've told him before that she makes me feel suicidal. That when she screams at me I immediately feel like harming myself. He has known this and just expects me to keep pretending I'm fine but then he's shocked that I'm at a point where I just wouldn't really care if I never saw her again.

Idk guys. I always give sympathy to people who are abusing me, no matter how bad it is because I've always been told I'm a burden that people are stuck with. So I guess their reward is to treat me badly.

I don't really know what to do. I have had so many cries for help. He doesn't think I need disability. I just need to get over having CPTSD. Then I tell him how bad my mental health is and he doesn't believe me. He thinks autistic people all talk in forums and make up symptoms together to pretend that it's a shared experience. I don't know. I'll be glad if I can get into a better situation. But I feel like just trusting people to just always do the right thing if you just explain how bad it is is why I keep living with people who hate me.

EDIT: thank you all for making me realize that i need to get out. called adult protective services. terrified of the fallout. i told them i'm terrified of the fallout.

Thought of this because I was cleaning out my corn's water dish with her on my shoulders and said, "will you please stop trying to strangle me?" and I thought about how absurd that would be to say to a dog or cat LOL.

I got a few from Dollar Tree and I've looked around online and on this sub and it seems like there are a lot of options.

What are your favorites? If you use aliexpress, do you have a specific favorite shop?

Any advice on what to look for when buying online?

I have no idea a timeline. Woke up and went to get her mouse out of the fridge and it's not there. Check her and she's clearly basking and has a bulge.

My stepmom, who is the only one who would have fed her is just straight up lying and saying she didn't. She may have properly thawed it, but it's unlikely. I feel like based on how they eat their own food that it was either left on the counter for like half an hour or longer or they just took it out of the fridge and gave it to her.

Either way they're firm on saying no one fed her, so what can I do?

Currently I'm going to tell them when they get home that I need to go to the ER because if I fed her this morning and don't remember then it's a serious problem. Hopefully this will get someone to "remember" they actually did feed her. Or hell, if I did and forgot we'll get that sorted.