u/puddingboydiego

I'm 15 years old and I've been constantly picking my scalp for over 2 years. There are periods of time where I stop, but I always come back to it to the point I can't stop. I even do it at school, with my hands dirty or when my nails are too short to properly pick. My mom keeps telling me I should stop, she gets very angry whenever she sees me doing it and tells me my scalp has big red scabs but I don't think they're that bad? Some people definitely have worse ones. Well lately she's been telling me she will slap my hands whenever she sees me doing it, and I really don't care. I'd do it in secret if I have to, it brings me so much satisfaction. But it does hurt when I brush my hair, I'm also a little ashamed of being seen doing it by my classmates (they've probably already noticed) but it's not enough for me to stop.

I'm asking this question here because maybe some of you guys can relate more than in the main sub. Years ago I used to have very bad top and bottom dysphoria, I didn't want to have sex until I had phallo and top surgery. But eventually for some reason I started to like my birth genitals and didn't want to get phallo, but I did want top surgery and of course HRT. Now I'm questioning if I want top surgery because I've been scrolling in some trans men/ transmascs nsfw subs (where a lot of people don't have any surgeries) and I've noticed I wouldn't mind my body looking like that, I think it's hot and would definitely want to look like one of them. The problem is that I would like to keep my boobs for sex only, idk it turns me on imagining myself with them while fucking. BUT I also want to go shirtless anywhere and be able to wear clothes that I think would look better if I didn't have breasts. They're not very large maybe a B or even an A cup. My dream chest would be very veryyy small boobs.

I'm currently writing a fanfic about my oc and a character I'm literally obsessed with. But I think nobody will actually read it. Maybe it's boring for people to watch some random person's oc with a cc. Idk I'm almost giving up because of this. Do any of you like cc/oc?

I'm 15 years old, I live in Colombia and the presidential elections are taking place right now. There is this right wing candidate (Abelardo de las priella) which is a threat to all of the queer people in my country, he's blatantly homophobic/transphobic, admitted to commiting violence towards animals when he was a teen and defends and promoted fracking. He also wants to get rid of the paramo of Santurbán (which is the biggest in the country and will damage the environment so much). My mom, friends and I are very worried, all of us are leftists and go for the candidate who is in second place, Iván Cepeda, an awesome man who would bring so much good for this country even if the ignorant dick heads from my city say otherwise. If he won, my transition would be so much smoother and easier, but right now De las priella is winning for about 2% and I'm literally crying. I fear for my life and what is going to be the next four years if this abomination of a man wins.

This is pissing me off so bad. For context I used to self harm in 2024, the scars on my upper left arm and thighs are wide but they are all healed and they are not very noticeable unless you look up close. I can wear the clothes I want when I'm with my mom or friends because they all know (I'm a minor) but when I'm with my family I can't, I can't wear a tank top or a t-shirt with too short sleeves because they'll notice and they can't know. I personally don't give a shit if they find out, but my mom does and I understand because she'll be the one getting rude comments about me. I just wanna wear a cute top or a bathing suit, all my other cousins can and I just get jealous, I wished I hadn't donde this to myself. I don't hate my scars I hate what people will say about them, my mom keeps telling me it's my responsibility because those are the consequences of my actions, it's obvious that the moment I was slicing my arm off I wasn't thinking about the "consequences". This just makes me so angry because I wished people just didn't care or didn't say anything.