u/queenoftheworst

I don't know what I'm really asking for here. Maybe just a vent. Maybe just seeking other peoples' stories and wisdom. I still like my husband, I think. I just don't feel it right now.

We were together for 8 years prior to having kids and it was amazing. Magnetic. We loved spending all of our time together and would call/text whenever we couldn't be together.

That lasted years - up until he started to feel restless in life. Began to throw himself into his hobbies and work and never really made an effort to spend time with me. Was so focused on starting his own business. Pushed for having a kid even though I didn't think we were ready financially. Talked me into it.

Luckily I really loved being a mom. I wanted to spend time with all 3 of us together, but he still insisted that all of his free time went towards making money and giving us a better life. Said he wanted to work long hours while our kids were young and wouldn't remember. I understood, but still felt hurt. Told him a few times, "what's the point if -I- don't even like you by the time that happens?"

Got pregnant again when our son was 9mo. Twins. Luckily we're in a better spot financially. He insists on a new car and a big house. I'm trying to convince him to go with less expensive options so we have wiggle room in our budget. My objections are ignored. I'm exhausted; 7 months pregnant, working full time, spending all my free time taking care of a toddler otherwise my husband just sticks him in front a screen. Begged him to help me pack (because now we don't have money in the budget to pay for someone to help us pack). Can't do it, he's gotta work to pay for all the new expenses. So stupid.

I get angry whenever I see him dicking around on his phone. I know he deserves downtime too. But I thought he was pouring ALL of his time into work.

Twins are here. We're two months in and all the cracks in our relationship are amplified times ten. Oh and guess what??? Unexpected loss in revenue so now we're right back to living on the edge of poverty even though we're making 3 times as much because we didn't make smart financial moves.

Normally I'd be fighting to figure it out with him but I just don't have it in me. I just feel resentful and apathetic. I know it's early and everyone says to wait a year after having kids. I know it's my fault for letting him coerce me into our current living situation. This feels different than the PPD I had with our first kid. This just feels like I don't like him anymore.

TL;DR: Husband never made an effort to spend time together or listen to my advice. Came back to bite us. I don't really care about our relationship anymore but i don't think I'm ready for a divorce. I dont know where to go from here.

My 18m toddler fell out of his high chair and hit his head on the kitchen tile.

It was absolutely my fault. I was doing too much. Husband is sick so I told him to lay down and take a break. Was making dinner. I was starving. Toddler was fussing. The 1m twins were screaming. Toddler won't eat the dinner so I'm making him his "safe" food because he hasn't eaten much all day. I'm washing my hands religiously as I run between everything to make sure the kids don't get sick because that would be a nightmare. Suddenly I hear the crash and him screaming.

Huge goose egg right in the middle of his forehead. Horrible overwhelming guilt.

I always double check to make sure he's locked in. Why didn't I just double check :(

He's ok now. Just got everybody down for bed. Sitting in my kitchen that is a wreck from the dinner that nobody ate. And I'm still starving.

My 18m is a wild child. 99th percentile across the board and even his pediatrician mentioned how strong he is for his age. He also only listens half the time.

Our twins just hit 1 month and I want to start taking them out all together. I'm thinking twins in the stroller + toddler walking - but we haven't really let him walk on his own outside and I'm moderately concerned he's gonna run in the street get himself hit by a truck because I'm not strong enough to manage all 3.

Any recs for a sturdy leash? Or any advice on how to walk to the park with the whole crew?

My 18m is a wild child. 99th percentile across the board and even his pediatrician mentioned how strong he is for his age. He also only listens half the time.

Our twins just hit 1 month and I want to start taking them out all together. I'm thinking twins in the stroller + toddler walking - but we haven't really let him walk on his own outside and I'm moderately concerned he's gonna run in the street get himself hit by a truck because I'm not strong enough to manage all 3.

Any recs for a sturdy leash? Or any advice on how to walk to the park with the whole crew?

Everybody loves magnatiles. I'm interested in getting some. But my 18mo's favorite game is to tear through the house, yank open every drawer/door/cabinet and scatter whatever contents all over the floor.

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If I get these, am I condemning myself to super 52 pick up??

That's it. That's the post.

If one of them wakes up and fusses for 2 hours of her 3h nap window, do I keep the other one up too?