u/quinzennn

i'm going through some tough shit right now. i'm starting college in a month and i feel restless now. it's actually many things i'm going through right now, like relationships, loneliness, and healing from past trauma. i'm also learning to live alone now.

a short background from me: i come from a third-world country and lived with my mom and an extended family. growing up, i didn't really get to talk about problems like that. i kinda did well, but i don't know, i was still kinda average. i wasn't talented, i just liked singing and did what i loved, but it was mostly with people or friends. i usually didn't do something i love when i was alone. i needed someone to convince me, support me, or join me. so, that became a standard for me.

now that i need to get stuff done as a young adult, it's hard for me to go out there because i have to research stuff now and i don't have anyone to ask about it. i feel ashamed. i see people having friends to do it with, but i don't. i have some friends, but i don't really have ones that i'm very close with, or a big circle i'm comfortable with. i became introspective not because i'm introverted, but because i just didn't have deep bonds with people, and that makes me sad.

now i'm going through a phase in my love life where i feel alone because we don't really get each other, and we don't say things that bother us. i don't know if i'm courting or doing the right things, and yeah, it's just been hard dealing with that. i say this because i think the main reason why i'm so bothered in this relationship is not because of uncertainty, but my fear of missing out and having no sense of purpose by myself. i mean, like, i like her and all, but the reason why i get massive impact and hurt by friends that let me down sometimes, even by small things, is because i'm sensitive. my life is just, in general, not big and uninteresting.

i feel very inexperienced, so everything feels like it has to take days or weeks to move on and go forward again. it's been hard because i've been noticing patterns for weeks and months. i don't know, i just want support if anyone feels this way too. my life feels like a generic life everyone lives, but i just feel so alone. i don't know how to express what i feel, it's just sad and lonely.

i'm going through some tough shit right now. i'm starting college in a month and i feel restless now. it's actually many things i'm going through right now, like relationships, loneliness, and healing from past trauma. i'm also learning to live alone now.

a short background from me: i come from a third-world country and lived with my mom and an extended family. growing up, i didn't really get to talk about problems like that. i kinda did well, but i don't know, i was still kinda average. i wasn't talented, i just liked singing and did what i loved, but it was mostly with people or friends. i usually didn't do something i love when i was alone. i needed someone to convince me, support me, or join me. so, that became a standard for me.

now that i need to get stuff done as a young adult, it's hard for me to go out there because i have to research stuff now and i don't have anyone to ask about it. i feel ashamed. i see people having friends to do it with, but i don't. i have some friends, but i don't really have ones that i'm very close with, or a big circle i'm comfortable with. i became introspective not because i'm introverted, but because i just didn't have deep bonds with people, and that makes me sad.

now i'm going through a phase in my love life where i feel alone because we don't really get each other, and we don't say things that bother us. i don't know if i'm courting or doing the right things, and yeah, it's just been hard dealing with that. i say this because i think the main reason why i'm so bothered in this relationship is not because of uncertainty, but my fear of missing out and having no sense of purpose by myself. i mean, like, i like her and all, but the reason why i get massive impact and hurt by friends that let me down sometimes, even by small things, is because i'm sensitive. my life is just, in general, not big and uninteresting.

i feel very inexperienced, so everything feels like it has to take days or weeks to move on and go forward again. it's been hard because i've been noticing patterns for weeks and months. i don't know, i just want support if anyone feels this way too. my life feels like a generic life everyone lives, but i just feel so alone. i don't know how to express what i feel, it's just sad and lonely.