u/rainydays_1234

14m

I have anorexia b/p sub type, and recently my parents have told me they would send me to inpatient if I don't eat at least twice a day. The thing is, I get EXTREMELY bloated if I eat traditional foods and I hate how sick and disgusting it makes me feel. I hate feeling full I need to feel empty or I genuinely feel suicidal. Recently I've found a trick around it, I've been dry scooping like>!1000 calories of !<protein powder. As disgusting as it sounds, I genuinely enjoy it, and for some reason unlike usual where I give myself an inch and go a mile with eating then purge so I stop hurting, I don't feel the need to binge. On top of that I can't stop drinking little bits of light maple syrup, its so good and I don't feel full. I think maybe I crave those things due to a deficiency in some kind of nutrients, but idk. Anyone know if this is just me being weird and I need to stop or if this is normal?

14m

My knuckles freaking hurt so bad and I have summer football practice coming up soon for school and it already hurts, but I know the turf and hitting against the other guys' pads is going to make it soooo much more painful. My bones are literally sticking through my knuckle and its very dry and bruised, and I have some bruises going down the sides of my hand. But yeah, any way to reduce the pain and dryness? Also, side question, how do I remove some of the throat and stomach pain, I literally feel like i swallowed razors and my guts are being chopped to bits.

"I'm only 14, I can't have health issues from it yet." "its only one bad tooth." "...Now two, but only two, I have plenty more." "The shaking is simply from not drinking enough water... Right?" "the heart palpitations will stop soon." "This will stop soon." "I'm young, my body can recover more easily."

Being young doesn't change what you do to your body. You only get one. Even just a year can ruin so much. I'm young and have more health issues revolving my insides than my 84 year old grandma. Bulimia is real- you ARE NOT an exception.

Anyone have any idea on what classes are best (there were way too many options) and whether or not I should take AP classes as I have the option to. I would also appreciate any ideas on what to bring/ways around things. Thanks in advance!

I thought that nobody would've even thought I had a disorder, as i see myself as "too fat to be disordered" but today a few of my friends said that they were really concerned for me and how much my body has changed over a short period of time. The other day when my grandparents visited my grandpa had also mentioned concern about me to my mom and she got onto me about how I need to start eating more or she'll send me to inpatient.

I had gone out of control today and ate around >!3000!< calories and in attempt to regain control I went to purge everything out as usual. The thing is, I >!had sat there for half an hour with four entire fingers in my mouth, yet all that happened was a few gags, unusually irritated throat, rapid heart beats, and a slight shakiness.!< I gained >!6 !<entire lbs. I feel so out of control. I can't stop shaking and crying. What do I do after a binge? I haven't had to suffer the consequences of one in months and this really, really sucks. Also, does anyone know why I was unable to >!puke?!< It was like my throat was reacting, but my stomach just gave up and stopped. It wouldn't let me feel control.

So far I've lost 90lbs, and I'm down to the last 20 for me to finally feel happy with myself. The issue is that these last 20 just won't go away. I've seen posts of others doing month long fasts and such, and I'm thinking of attempting one as well. My only concern is that many health coaches online say that within around two weeks most people regain majority if not all weight back because its "just water weight." I at least want to keep half my progress made through the fast.

I'm a returning player and I swear the settings were a lot different when I last played. The game feels a lot more clunky. I just want my old sensitivity settings.

I'm 14m and my dad just yelled at me and threatened to take things away from me if I don't eat. All i did was fast for ONE day. He said I have to eat to earn my things. The truth is, I truly don't care. Nothing matters more to me than losing weight right now as I had gained >!7!< pounds due to eating over the coarse of a week in addition to my week break from summer sports. I can't eat until I get back to the original weight or lower. I refuse to be seen by my friends while I'm this fat during my return to summer practice. I had told him about my carelessness and he replied telling me he would force me to the doctors. I can't go there. All they will do is make me fat. I literally gained weight, how could they still see me as sick? Do you all think its ok for him to yell at me and threaten me with these things? Its literally my body.

This started when I was 11 and it was a way to be both be seen by others in a positive light and to shrink away the fat so I would be left alone. I was sick of being the obese, angry, stupid freckled boy of the friend group. Now I'm 14 and I'm moderately thin but not underweight. Its all a game now, and if I go back then I lose, but at the same time, the game has lost its fun. Its to repetitive and dreadfull at the moment. I used to want to be hidden so others would let me exist without wanting to die. Now I want to be noticed. I've experienced most forms of an ed by now, and a few side effects from each one. It adds up quick. I have lose skin from binging, scarred knuckles, pained teeth, and an incredibly sore throat from puking and chew and spit, memory loss, constant blackouts, a drop in intelligence from starving, bowel problems from taking 50+ laxatives for days in a row and so much more. Yet through all I've been through, I'm still not underweight. I'm not sure if I'm even "qualified" to get help. My worst fear is going to the doctor and getting told I'm normal, or better yet I'm "atypical" which in my mind is a sorry excuse for not going all in. I'm terrified my parents will tell me to "just eat" and ill be alright. At that point if I can't get help I might just stop eating until I die as that might be the only way out. How should I get help. This is a last resort as I dread every single day at the moment and one way or another, I will make it out. Whether through death or recovery. This game isn't fun anymore.

This started when I was 11 and it was a way to be both be seen by others in a positive light and to shrink away the fat so I would be left alone. I was sick of being the obese, angry, stupid freckled boy of the friend group. Now I'm 14 and I'm moderately thin but not underweight. Its all a game now, and if I go back then I lose, but at the same time, the game has lost its fun. Its to repetitive and dreadfull at the moment. I used to want to be hidden so others would let me exist without wanting to die. Now I want to be noticed. I've experienced most forms of an ed by now, and a few side effects from each one. It adds up quick. I have lose skin from binging, scarred knuckles, pained teeth, and an incredibly sore throat from puking and chew and spit, memory loss, constant blackouts, a drop in intelligence from starving, bowel problems from taking 50+ laxatives for days in a row and so much more. Yet through all I've been through, I'm still not underweight. I'm not sure if I'm even "qualified" to get help. My worst fear is going to the doctor and getting told I'm normal, or better yet I'm "atypical" which in my mind is a sorry excuse for not going all in. I'm terrified my parents will tell me to "just eat" and ill be alright. At that point if I can't get help I might just stop eating until I die as that might be the only way out. How should I get help. This is a last resort as I dread every single day at the moment and one way or another, I will make it out. Whether through death or recovery. This game isn't fun anymore.