u/rambling_takeover

These dreams only happen from time to time in my dorm house, not ever that I remember the same kind of dreams at my parent’s house. Often times I’m hanging out with someone in my room in these dreams, it feels real yet surreal, like I got up to sit at my desk with them. One time when two friends slept over, I had a dream we were all sitting around my room awake, plus two others that seemed like my friends but don’t recall being anyone I know. I woke up after that dream in the middle of the night with my friends sleeping sound. I experienced other dreams like this, occurring in my room.

Do you guys get dreams like this? And do you perceive them as a sign?

Just a genuine question, I might be in the wrong place as a girl here but I relate to a lot of this shit despite noticing how much male-centered problems and media people here struggle with.

There are always empowering songs and stories about others telling you it gets better and others that grow to be clean and live proudly with their scars as a sign of their strength and braveness. Good for them, but I don’t feel the same, it isn’t helpful.

I’m not strong, that’s why I cut. These scars will never mean anything more than that time in my life where I felt helpless, hopeless and horrible inside.

I may need some positive encouragement, I think that’s what I’m seeking here. I just feel so fucking hopeless and I don’t wanna be here

Just. I thought I had stopped, and I had relapsed after a few months. I had the same last year after not cutting for 6 fucking months and I did it again. But I don’t intend to stop anymore (again). I don’t see why I shouldn’t cut, but most of all I’m just scared I won’t ever get rid of this trauma of cutting myself. A lot of shit triggers me and I’ll relapse always.