Idk i love his music and the person he is ive been listening to him for 4 or 5 years and i can never get tired of hearing his voice and the way he tells his life thru his songs is just so sad for me and also the lyrics are always so rythmic just wanted to say i love love him and miss him:/
Can you guys tell me if it's really worth reading it cus i've tried to read it but i just keep on giving up because of how it starts and if you have recommendations i'll gladly take them ( i've read alot of them basics and etc)
Just opened the banana and saw that wtf
Probably going to a karaoke and singing my ass out
I can't sleep I can't focus when they're speaking I hate this feeling of a hot ball on my chest yes I know it's related to stress and no therapy cus they would think I am crazy can anyone help me please
My familly is super religous but not me and I don't want to be. Starting with my parents well they force us to read the book do our prayers and do not let us wear anything thats considered nudity when we aren't even wearing shorts or anything.. you know just constantly saying did you do your prayer or whatever. I can't even talk about my father becauss he is just pervert and a narscist he judges people walking around if they're homosexual or trans in our language because he's just a scaredy cat lol. On the morning all they talk about is that or our family like very loudly and I literally can't sleep after the prayer because they're loud yes i've told them I can't sleep so just close the door. Both of my parents but more my dad cares alot about studies but how do you expect me to focus on my shit when you're constantly making noises?. And honestly the religion isn't that bad but people are so blind and cannot hear whats actually being said in the book they're just fools believing that if they believe in it they'll go to paradise even when commiting sins which is funny because how did my dad who was violent and grabbing my butt still does be accepted in paradise?? And when i tell my mom or oldest sister they it's literally normal for a man in your FAMILY to do this but not from men outside. All they do is commit sins then try to repent themselves then commit sins again then repent again and apparently they're always forgiven no matter what the sin but a woman wearing a tshirt is the fucking biggest sin?
So I don't know where to really start but let's just with my family so for myself I'm a 17 years old girl I have 4 siblings and my parents as a religion islam(which i do not believe in at all). My father and oldest sibling are very narcistic they don't ever have done anything wrong, they try to bring you down in the most hurtful ways and its always them they are smart over little small things. About my dad alone as someone who's from an asian house he did military and broguht us here where we live now for that my mom and oldest sister whenever we argue wish we could be a little more gentler and have empathy for him after what he has done to my another sister(beat her up when she was kid) or my mom which i witnessed from my own very eyes how he beat her with a chair and other stuff like that. Though I do not have any empathy, hatred or anything against him i've never felt loved and i feel so uncomfortable whenever he is around, he judges every one of us and how we feel depends on if he's on a good mood or not, he never went to mine or any of my sibling's school things besides he never cared for me whenever i was sick once I was feverish and had nausea and when my mom brought that up he just said "what should i do"?. For myself I didn't really have a thing against him up until my 8th grade where he started grabbing my butt or kissing me on the cheek or like my neck and he sometimes lifted my shirt just to see my chest and commented on it he does the same with my oldest sibling but she doesn't care but I felt so disgusted also my mom knows about it but what can she do? She's a fool she doesn't even understand anything and she lets them be,, i've also told her several times & to my siblings that he would grab my butt but nothing not a single word I guess I was looking for words to confort me that everything's gonna be ok but nothing anyways thanks to him I have gotten anxiety! Which doesn't help me at all because I always overthinking what's he gonna think, say or do. (Sorry for my english) I just wanted to get this off my chest for once i've never talked about it to my friends because i feel like i will only tear up infront of them and don't wanna bother no more people with my problems.
I don't know if i do relate but i need to know what y'all been through and how do you guys define a toxic family!
So i've read many and many bl's such as passion, borderline, roses and , codename anastasia, and many other that i can't even count but i've basically read every classic ones and i can't find more of them so if anyone has one or many that they like alot please recommend (manhwa if possible) my genre is more for the top to be possesive of his bf but anything is fine.