u/roxaneroxana

i wanted after i get my bac to go study in TU berlin......but i found out that University registrations stop on July 15th..... and bac results will be in the last days of July...... 😭... and i have to be B2 in German.... but i just started learning it now.....😭.... and it's not easy at alll.... 😭my dreams all will collapse 💔.....

is this real?..... when i heard people talking abt it i thought they were wrong.....but i think I'm going through it now... it's hell...

(me 17 yo girl).....i went to study science in my private class today....i was the first who arrived there.....i entered the class and i sat in the table in front of me.....all the tables were empty....i unpacked my school stuff on the table.. the place we're so far from home so i had to walk all the way on my feet..i was so tired and sick......i was preparing myself for the lesson and reading from the book... a girl came and ordered me to get up and she said it's her place....(no one have actual place...the tables not named by our names and i was the first who sat there) .... i said there's a lot of empty places u can pick from them.....she got out of the class and then came back and brought her friend with her...her friend asked me to get up....i said this is so disrespectful how can u tell a person to get up? is this alright to u?......she said yes it's.....then i got up...i didn't want things go far bcz in this school they kick students out when they make fights.... i don't do fights i never was put in a situation like this.... they were threatening me.. they said they will show me wt respect is and they were throwing words... i ignored them and changed my table i don't know... i feel i shouldn't got up that time....bcz i was right and they were wrong.....they just wanted to challenge me... and the girl felt weak alone so she called her friend.....

i really now feel God more than ever......God is in everything... in every single detail......I always talk to God when i meditate.....i tell him everything i wish.....i tell him abt my problems....my pain....i ask him and he answers me........I've been going through miracles all the time since i awakened......my prayers was heard everytime.......God is protecting me...guiding me....loving me..... i once was crying to him... telling him that i don't have family friends....i have no one cares about me or support me...... but now i really don't need anything or anyone but him......... i have God with me and that's my gift.....i never felt loved like this before.....seeing how everyone so blind to see God makes me feel so sad.....everyone in my society thinks that God is so far.....they made us think that through the way they say.... they say God is close but the way they say it makes it feel he is not close......They say God will punish us....we will go to hell if we do this or that.....we are unforgiven...... they made us worship the picture they draw abt God.....they made us worship the devil...... they made us practise the conditional love with God.... if we make this he will like us...and if not.. he will hate us 😭I'm crying

i want to share wt happened to me.... i was sitting alone when a dove landed near me...i whispered a prayer "God plz if my dreams will come true...make this dove come closer or make a step".... Right then..the dove gave its back to me and flied away....like it ignored me...i laughed.....i get it as "no".... i said to myself does this mean i won't reach the things i want? ...then i looked up and saw a whole flock of doves... suddenly flying right over me....

A few days before that, I asked for a sign regarding a deep thought..I asked to see a Black Cat.....within minutes .....I saw two black cats together (mating)

wt does it mean?.........sometimes i don't believe in these things.... i say it was just a coincidence or it didn't mean me...... it wasn't meant for me...

do u sometimes feel so bad and uncomfortable......like everything in u wants to explode..... u can't do anything... u can't focus or study or relax...or have a good time.... u spend days like this......then suddenly u change totally and ur passion comes back...u start be productive more than anytime.....👽 u be like like this for days too.... then u come back to the first situation..... wt is happening to me?....

i asked my angels and guides for guidance and help....they don't give me answers....all they do is watching me...... my situation is going worse........I'm not feeling comfortable at all......i just want to have a peace of mind.... wt should i do to be able to talk to them in my dreams?...