u/seliishere

Hello all. I first started smoking at 16/17 with thc carts. By 18 I was smoking thc carts 24/7 till nearly 20 (I'm 20 now) with the exception of a few month breaks. In feb I ditched carts for an Xmax dry herb vape and hit that everyday instead.

Anyways long story short at the end of July I tried a cart again used it in 3 days n then took a 25 day T break in aims for moderation.

After the 25 days I bought a 3.5 - my dealer doesn't sell less. I had a fat blunt with my friend, watched a storm under a tarp outside - it was fucking beautiful.

The next day ugh, cravings. I loaded up 3 dif bowls on the xmax and called it a day. I was progressively feeling them less and less.

Now today, I have cravings like hell. Debating selling the xmax as its way too convenient. Haven't had any yet but I don't really trust myself right now. Help?

For context I work in a UK convince store 5 mins walk away from home. I have worked there since March this year. I am autistic and struggled a lot at first with anxiety and burnout which caused me to miss a day or two in March, until they gave me less hours.

Because of this I was given warning number 1.

Then in May I ended up becoming reinfested with scabies that I had been dealing with since November of last year. I felt so disgusted and ashamed, it tanked my mental health and I took 2 weeks off while I cleaned everything and got my head in a better place. I literally had no quilt and struggled to sleep during this time, I was also paranoid of passing it on. This resulted in warning number 2.

Then I decided recently to quit vaping and on top of withdrawal developed an infection which I visited the doctor for today. I called in sick to work because I was throwing up at 4am.

When I go back to work in the next few days, I feel I will be in big trouble, but I needed to go off, or I might have thrown up on the shop floor. I'm worried I will either lose my job or if I have 1 other instance of absence I will be fired.

Idk what to do because I spent half a year looking before I got this job, despite having a 1yr apprenticeship achieved at distinction.

Do you guys think I will lose my job?

So for context, I took up vaping nictoine as a lesser evil as I was incredibly addicted to thc vaping, I started at 10mg and worked up to 20mg. I vaped heavily for a year, all day, everyday. I really regret not picking no nic liquid.

In March/April I was becoming fed up, the taste was naff, the rush gone and the vapes constantly spitting into my mouth. Not to mention the money. I had a friend, who was a lighter vaper, quit and I felt if she could, then fuck it, I can.

A few days ago I decided to quit after my last pod was burnt out. I don't wanna be attached to a silly smoke USB for life. I got myself NiQuitin 21mg step 1 patches for withdrawal, push pops and gum for the oral fixation.

Its been 4 days since this, and GOD I feel sick as a dog but free. Day 1 + 2 really showed me how addicted I was as I laid in bed, reaching for a vape that literally wasn't there! I had purposefully put it away in a drawer.

I keep feeling headachy, sickly and weak. Its very hot in the UK right now. I walked 5 minutes to the shop and the combo of heat and withdrawal nearly made me throw up. I'm keeping myself dosed with paracetamol and ibuprofen as well as using cool packs to help with the heat. Its been difficult to eat, so I'm trying to eat very easy foods like ice-cream. I think I'll try a bit of soup later too.

I also have a sore throat but I think thats related to incorrect use of a herb vaporiser, not quitting nic.

But god, I feel great about finally taking this step for my health and wallet. I feel free despite the craving and the illness. I have felt so emotional, and hated myself a little but this will pass. I'm proud of myself.

After many failed solo and group attempts, me and my partner decided to give it a shot together. He did a glass cannon ranger, I went for tanky necro/warfare, tanky poly/warfare/geo and a purely support with buffs and heals from hydro/aero/necro/pyro.

His glass cannon build saved my ass so many times, the damage output at the end game was insane! I am also so proud of my team managing skills as I felt I did a great job at keep armour and health up.

Though I did nearly wipe us with death fog in the imp pocket realm! Oops!

Overall, I am so proud (might even be the proudest I've felt in a long time), this is our first time beating honour mode. Next time we plan on doing honour with lone wolf skeletons.

Just wanted to make this post to celebrate such an achievement. Here's to another year of playing divinity! It honestly feels like a love letter to this game, to finally complete it on the hardest difficulty.