Christian Medium is this an oxymoron?
“Do not turn to mediums or seek out spiritists, for you will be defiled by them. I am the Lord your God.”
— Leviticus 19:31
“A man or woman who is a medium or spiritist among you must be put to death.”
— Leviticus 20:27
“Let no one be found among you… who practices divination or sorcery, interprets omens, engages in witchcraft, or casts spells, or who is a medium or spiritist or who consults the dead.”
— Deuteronomy 18:10–12
“When men tell you to consult mediums and spiritists, who whisper and mutter, should not a people inquire of their God?”
— Isaiah 8:19
So I have read a lot about hearing from the dead, and maybe I am missing something, but it seems like it is wrong for someone to talk to spirits. As a Christian, this makes me feel very isolated and I don’t really know where I fit in. In the scientific community, what I have would be considered schizophrenia and although I do take medication since it started 3 years ago, nothing has stopped it. I have even gotten elders from two different churches to pray over me, yet it hasn’t gone away, either.
My daughter was born premature in November of 2022. This is when my Christian journey really began. Initially, my daughter was born grey and NOT breathing. The doctors had to resuscitate her, and thankfully Jesus made a way. Right as she came out I saw her and heard a thought say “The mercy of the Lord”. I knew that this DIDN’T come from me. I was very worried but this calmed me. After we brought our daughter home from the NICU after 21 days, I began to look more into the Bible and Christian worship songs. I felt very grateful that God had made his presence known and that she would be okay. Even though I had the stress of a new mom, I had the support I needed with my husband and extended family. One thing I had been praying to God about while I was pregnant was for him to give me some clarity about an incident that occurred when I was 4 years old. I have had flashbacks of some CSA that happened and a NDE that I wasn’t clear about which was why I was praying.
The night of my son’s 3rd birthday, when my daughter was 4 months old, I was lying in bed and listening to gospel music. I was listening to a song about Mary Magdalene by CeCe Winans. As I was listening, I all of a sudden got a vision in my mind. I saw Jesus take my spirit and embrace my body. My spirit was sandwiched between my body and Jesus. He basically embraced me as he was “letting me go” so to speak. The body was the four years old and not my adult body.
I was really happy about this “vision” and it brought me a LOT of comfort about what happened to me. What happened next was totally unexpected. I began having thoughts that weren’t mine. It didn’t have a sound, and the words sounded like my own thoughts, only I did not create them. I was really scared at first. I got treated with multiple psychiatric medications, just hoping it would go away. Three years later, things have somewhat improved only because I have “gotten used to it” in a sense. It has served me in terms of getting more clear communication from my OWN family, but I also have a spirit who clings to me. There are spirits that are troubled and choose not to go to heaven. Some are especially drawn to this existence which is why they stay. They forget where “home” is and get trapped in their own trauma. The one who follows me is actually a teen boy who died in 1982 at the age of 17. He was a suicide and died due to an abusive environment. He takes his anger out on me, similar to “kicking a dog” when the abusive person feels upset. I honestly don’t know why God chose for this to happen to me.
I am open to any insight you might have, from a Christian perspective. I already have a psychiatrist, therapist, and a support system with my family. I work part time as a nurse, despite all this, as well as being a mother to two kids ages 3 and 6.
Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ.
— Ephesians 1:2