Many of them isn't real person and full of AI bots account. If they're real now you know "why many demons live together with us". This ridiculous and it's just as bad as saying that letting innocent people deserve punishment.
For the context he's being overly religious but still bullying me and even saying false statement about me when I dropped out from highschool.
His friend fell in love with me but it have multi purposes such as a joke and to make fun of me.
They're monsters and I cannot forget about it forever.
I thought they're nice and giving them a chance to change but until now I'd never heard any of them saying sorry to me.
No one contacted me after I dropped out. I'm alone.
Now his friend that having a crush on me trying to follow my account and I just blocked him. Sorry but I cannot forgive since they won't change.
I don't know if this is a wrong thing to do but I really want to go to church in peace without anyone laughing at me for whatever shortcomings or suddenly accusing me of being unworthy towards God.
There's group of people saying that I'm not Christian for no reason (I cannot talk properly in real life because I've disabilities)
There's a priest that always attacking me too and judging me that I don't looks like normal people (literally I'm disabled)
Since that I'd never going to church for about 5 years and afraid of interacting with another Christian or talking about Christianity.
I'm tired isolating myself from my hometown people that blamed me that I dropped out from highschool due to extreme bullying and racism.
My condition kinda getting better since I'm taking medication, but my parents cannot stop talking and blaming me about anything happened in my highschool.
How to make them stop? They already know that I've cptsd but it seems like they're saying "you don't pray enough" or "ask god" even if they know that I failed in church "class" because some priest here defending my bullies. In fact I don't believe in church or people anymore.
This just too much for me I think I would go insane from constant nightmares and flashbacks.
What should I do?
They just labeled me more crazy because I'm always vomiting whenever they mentioned the traumatic event.
Some crazy happens that even if I'm crying they told me "cry won't help" are they monster that doesn't have empathy? This sick.
I might running away from home.
Idk what to do anymore.
No one defending me.
I'm hopeless.
Does this all because of my fault?