u/shy_seedling213

I am super sad and needing to take a break for health reasons and hoping to resubscribe again in the near future.

Can I transfer gold to a level twenty character and spend this gold freely after I unsubscribe? I understand there is a 1000g limit as far as acquiring it on a trial account and can't use the auction house, but want to transfer beyond the 1000g limit. I am very sorry if this answer is obvious lol. I have never been in this position before.

I want to be able to check in from time to time on my housing plot. Hoping to buy decor and decorate when I can

Hey everyone. I moved to Ashland about six years ago and love it here. During the summer months, I frequent Lithia park quite a bit for regular walks, while it's cool enough. Our summers are so hot, I wanted to ask if anyone knows of other spots in ashland that are shady. I haven't ventured much beyond the park and close to where I live. I would love any help finding more places in our town with many trees 🌳

I am not currently subbed and created a new horde Haranir to collect herbs for a time before I sub again. This is primarily for dyes. I started a garrison which is now lvl 2. The NPC I should get the "Clearing the Garden" quest does not have this available. I have looked this up online and not clear if my character needs to be higher lvl? Does anyone know if this quest is only available for subbed players?

(Trigger warning: suicidal ideation)

I wasn't sure which group to post this in. I don't use this site very much and happy to have found this subreddit.

My bpd manifests itself with extreme self imposed isolation. I lock myself away from the world and the isolation has created a new form of mental illness. I am severely lonely. Because of this, I can sometimes act out by seeking human connection in ways that don't align with the type of deep connection I really want. Certain connections I seek could lead to a dark road.

As I get older, the traumatized, little person inside of me becomes more difficult to keep in check or hidden. I am terrified of people. I used to be able to handle myself ok in social situations. It was painful, but I managed. I have lost this ability if conversations last too long.

The little person inside of me feels terror 24/7. I acknowledge this is cptsd. I can objectively see it and separate it from my current, present day reality. But this trauma response is becoming impossible to live with. It's intolerable. I am screaming in my mind and it terrifies me.

Almost any social interaction triggers a spiral. Last night I called the crisis line to help level my emotions due to a questionable conversation I had with a man earlier in the day. This type of thing would not spiral neurotypical people. My suicidal ideation comes on strong like a wave and I drown in it. Unable to sleep or eat anything. It is either paralyzing or I feel a desperate need to unalive myself.

When it comes to this type of thinking, it scares me to hurt myself honestly. Typically I just hope I can die in my sleep. I feel comforted by it.

I am not sure where I am going with this, but just needed to talk it out. I would love to hear thoughts about how any of you deal with such extreme spirals such as this if you suffer similarly.

Hey everyone. To start off, I am a fearful avoidant type. I tend to isolate even when I don't want to. I would love to find healthy connection with someone and really struggle to find this. I become vulnerable to lovebombing because I am so damn lonely. The funny thing is that I love my solitude. I am an introvert. But I isolate

Since my divorce quite a few years ago, I have experienced many different types of lovebombing, but two in particular hit me hard. One was the "Knight in Shining Armor". It took me a long time to see behind his mask. I fell in love with him. Once I saw the cracks in his facade, I tried to communicate with him about it and he became elusive. He closed me off and I was devastated.

Not too long after, I met a man who is a "lover" type. He didn't hide anything about himself. Very emotional and impulsive. Romantic. He scared me and intoxicated me at the same time. I wasn't ready to date again, but ignored my gut because of the way he made me feel. I knew he was lovebombing me. Only after a week of knowing him, he wanted to get married lol. It was crazy nonsense. Although he was more sincere than the other man, his behavior was still a means to an end.

My problem now is that I am a full blown addict to this man's lovebombing. I am no longer drawn to him as a person, but my brain wants to create this scenario with another man. Anytime I see a man that resembles him, a switch gets flipped in my mind and I need a fix. Luckily my shyness and ability to objectively see the situation, keeps me from completely acting out. But I have a one track mind, chasing that high.

I am taking a break from dating to work on this. I am in the process of getting therapy. Has anyone here experienced anything like this? Are you still struggling or have you overcome it? I am sick and tired of it.