u/simplelifegoodvibes

It needs to be delusionally high

I used to read this guy back in early 20s..

I need some help so I remembered this name where I am going get that help

Idk what kind of help I need in my life , for most part I think I fool myself a lot

am 24 from india left my previous job 3 months ago currently on the outlook ...

And recently failed an interview that was really good opportunity. I am super annoyed by that

But hopefully I will find one soon ,

Thought I should share my day to day with someone to keep myself from this isolation...

Lmk if you are in same situation we can connect over that 👋👋👋

So I met her through an online course around 1.5 years ago. We started off as friends, and later she confessed that she liked me. Then she moved closer to my town. She used to ask me often to meet in person so we could get to know each other. I was a bit anxious and also procrastinating a lot on my career choices and being lazy with my life. She still hung on, and later we met twice in person. In between, I denied multiple times for the same reason: anxiety and procrastination.

I started getting serious with work and my internship and was a bit busy in December. So somewhere along the way, I told her and tried to end our conversations and say goodbye because I was a bit stressed, and she needed an active participant in the conversation to keep it going. I was not able to enjoy myself in those conversations, I think.

But I couldn't manage to properly get off the ride either.

So I gave it another try to manage both my career and her.

It started to work out somewhere. Then she started seeing some other people, and then she came back because neither of her other two options worked out as she thought.

Now, very recently, she said that she can't force herself to like me.

I am not going to message anymore.

I think I made her wait too much because, at some point, she did like me, I think.

I like her, but as she said she doesn't like me, I am moving away now and trying to gain momentum to start fresh.

So I met her through an online course around 1.5 years ago. We started off as friends, and later she confessed that she liked me. Then she moved closer to my town. She used to ask me often to meet in person so we could get to know each other. I was a bit anxious and also procrastinated a lot on my career choices and being lazy with my life. She still hung on, and later we met twice in person. In between, I denied multiple times for the same reason: anxiety and procrastination.

I started getting serious with work and my internship and was a bit busy in March . So somewhere along the way, I told her and tried to end our conversations and say goodbye because I was a bit stressed, and she needed an active participant in the conversation to keep it going. I was not able to enjoy myself in those conversations, I think.

But I couldn't manage to properly get off the ride either.

So I gave it another try to manage both my career and her.

It started to work out somewhere. Then she started seeing some other people, and then she came back because neither of her other two options worked out as she thought.

Now, very recently, she said that she can't force herself to like me.

I am not going to message anymore.

I think I made her wait too much because, at some point, she did like me, I think.

I like her, but as she said she doesn't like me, I am moving away now and trying to gain momentum to start fresh.