u/skerysatan

i don't post often, but EVERY SINGLE post i make on this godforsaken app always has a bunch of naysayers in the comments like "you sound annoying lol" or some random rude shit. for some reason, no one knows how to debate and get a point across politely and it makes me hateeee being transparent about shit on the internet. but i do it anyway because i love the rush of being in the right.

for example, i made a post asking about why my school's party scene was so dead. obviously hopping on reddit was not the plan to find the partygoers but yikyak & fizz are dead at my school as well. so, not the best place to ask it, but it's a valid question, right? i grew up in the city and partied all the time, and now go to a school in the same city, and no one parties. so..... like.......... what the fuck?

i think i kinda ruffled their feathers by saying "dont be lame guys" but that's just how i talk, i don't actually think people are lame for not getting out at all. like i kinda hate getting out but i love it. i think you guys understand.

THE WEIRDEST PART ABOUT THIS IS ON EVERY SINGLE POST i get a BUNCH of hate comments but i get the same number of DMs going something like "not sure why people are disagreeing with you/not sure why you're getting so much hate, you said/asked something reasonable". am i fucking crazy? am i insufferable? or am i right and are the people criticizing me wrong? or both?

hope you guys can relate because i'm literally getting driven up the walls about this thank you

EDIT: can't edit the title, but it should say why ARE fizz and yikyak so inactive. bad grammar is a no-no.

attending hunter, but this seems to be the common theme for all of the schools (queens college, baruch, etc.) i don't have party school money but like come on bro. why are you guys so introverted? i dont wanna be more active as a highschooler than i am a college student, that would be so lame. as an incoming freshman im already depressed. can anyone attest to the party life with students? is it easy to find out if someone's hosting?

please feel free to use this post to vent all your frustrations on past profs (and current ones), give me all the details. rate my professor just scrapes the surface, imo.

if you could specify your year, major, the class you took with them, and suggestions for alternatives (ex: a different class if the one you took isn't mandatory, a different prof for the same subject) that would also be super appreciated!

my mom has absolutely awful eating habits and has continuously gained weight over the last decade.

she has an incredibly bad "not my problem" or "i'll worry about it later" attitude and is constantly blaming not exercising/going to the gym and literally fucking binge eating on "work stress" and "not having the energy to think about diet or exercise".

i understand that this may be true in some capacity but every time i see her eating something, it literally enrages me and i can't help but yell at her to stop. it's gotten to the point where i've started telling her she disgusts me and i can't even eat in her presence anymore because i starts seeing red.

it makes me very upset when she sits down and eats half a fucking jar of hummus or half a bag of family-size chips and makes up some bullshit, lazy, gross excuse about "her period" or "low blood sugar". she has high blood sugar. she is pre-diabetic. she also has hypertension.

i'm the exact opposite: i struggle with hypotension and my blood sugar is in control. when i feel that i'm getting lightheaded, i'll eat something small and drink water, and it works fine for me, and i know it'll work fine for her if she does the same.

instead, she quite literally binges and tells me to "stay out of her business" and "worry about what i'm eating" after i ask her several times to stop and reflect on if she's actually hungry— she herself has admitted that "she hasn't actually felt any hunger in years", and "just eats on autopilot". so she literally bombards me with shit that concerns me regarding her diet and then continues to self-sabotage in front of me.

not only this, but she constantly complains about being fat. she never wants to make dinner (which is whatever) and she orders takeout all the time. she eat five giant slices of pizza in one sitting regularly. it genuinely fucking enrages me and gives me an awful feeling of disgust, to the point that i have to leave the table when she's eating or i refuse to talk to her.

i think it has to do with the fact that i struggle with eating, personally. i religiously think about calories, the amount of fat & sugar i am eating and what i am putting in my body. it makes me very angry when i see her eating carelessly, even if she is not obese or putting herself at risk by doing so.

how can i stop this? can anyone else relate? i feel really bad about treating her this way but i'm extremely angry at the same time. i can't even help my reaction. please help.