I want to say, I want to do it SO BADDD!! Since I was 10-11 I wanted my septem pierced, so honestly to make it clear I’m willing to suffer through pain but not potential infection or shifting because I WANT THIS TO LAST!

MY QUESTIONS ARE

• CROWDED ENVIRONMENTS, VACATION ORDEAL, HEAT

it will be crowded, probably very sweaty/humid, im wondering if this will cause irritation or if it just sits there? If i cry and i have a runny nose will that increase infection?

• HOW LONG WILL IT HURT FOR AND HOW BAD IF IT DOES

Im on the fence of “ oh this wont hurt” or “ it will hurt for 3 days then be bare-able “ is this right? Am i letting my need cloud my judgement? will it still hurt while I’m on vacation and how bad

• CLEANING AND MESSING WITH IT

how much should i clean it? And should i just not touch it AT ALL i tend to fidget a-ton and I’m worried il just wiggle it around and my nose will fall off

and experiences would help! Please tell me your stories

I want to start this by saying my mom is autistic and it dosent come from a place of giving up or hatred, but i do believe she has coddled him his entire life so he dosent get overwhelmed and lash out at us. She has been taking the easy way out. i dont think she understands that just because hes autistic it dosent mean he CANT do these things but that it will be harder for him to do and that he needs to learn how to work through it. When he was 6 she took him out of school for calling the teacher a bitch, he hasnt been im school since or has really had any friends outside of social media. He has terrible hygiene and dosent shower for weeks at a time, he dosent brush his teeth or anything. His diet is awful too and is mainly carbs and fast food + chips and soda. He struggles to eat or take care of himself and you cant really ask without him starting to get upset. He also has a terrible sleep schedule.

I dont say this to shame him but to explain the situation, he has basically been told his entire life that this is how he will be because he is disabled, which isnt true. I want to know tips for ANYTHING i mentioned. I feel like im watching someone grow up physically but not maturing because he hasnt been given room to do so.

My mom told me this after a few hours long breakdown related to my brother, he made a joke about my past drug addiction and ive been on edge for the last few weeks, ive been struggling with ptsd flashbacks but not the sad kind, hobbys and music and things id do before it ruined me. It feels like irs a slap on the face to me

Ive been supressed of my emotions and pushed aaside because of my brother with aspergers, he would scream and be verbally abusove towards are entire family sense he was a baby, he cant control ot, but he was never ashamed for it, it was just a part of who he is, i never got diagnosed, i never was aware i was also autistic because he was “worse” them me. It was never a worry. I remember screaming overwhelmed throwing stuff, bashing my head into walls, scratching my forhead raw, anything when i was overwhelmed, and my
Mom would roll her eyes and wait for me to stop. I was left to figure these feelings out alone, i got sa and then i become a prostitute at 11 years old because that was the only sense of “care” i felt, i wasnt removed, i was shamed and my privileges revokes, until a older guy said i was a prostitute and a slut, i was so ashamed i abondened wveryone. I statted fresh. But i feeo like now im that lost kid, ive been degressimg, skills, hobbies, passions, social slills, im reverting baco to that lost lonely kid and i hate it

I feel like too everyone else im too much and theres never going to be room for meni feel like im drying i feel trapped i want to scream i want to punch someone anything anuthing anuthing but i cant because thatll he too much i cant express emotions now because i dont have drugs to help me not be scared anymore im so tired i want a hug i want someone to tell me im not going fuckijg crazy i was being to much am i crazy am i crazy wm i crazy i dont know anuthint anymore