u/snikkers8410

I haven't had a hug or snuggled anyone in years. I'm so so incredibly lonely.

So I was on a medication for pain that can also treat depression. I was on it for 6 months to a year and had to stop rather quickly. All the physical withdrawal has stopped now that I've been off it a month but now I have serious depression. I don't know if it's from stopping that medication or if it's because my life has genuinely gone to shit.

I quit a job that was horrible for my mental health. It paid super well but I found a job that I really really love and it does amazing for my mind. The problem is it pays much less and the even bigger problem is I'm not getting the hours I was told I would get when I interviewed. The only bill I can currently pay is my car payment. All my creditors are just piling up. I'm currently looking for a second job. My house is a mess. Overwhelmingly so. I don't even know where to start. My bedroom is just piles everywhere.

I cry all the time. I do know my vitamin levels, especially vitamin D are very low, so I got some supplements. I really don't like my new primary doctor and don't want to talk to her about all this and I don't want to go back on medication. I just don't know how to lift this heaviness I feel over me. I feel like I need to get out of the house for a day or 2 but I can't afford that. Which now that I'm thinking about it, my normal self care routine is out of the budget.

I barely can pay for gas/groceries right now. My life has become bed/work/bed.. I live with a relative so I'm stuck in a 12x12 bedroom with my teenage daughter most of the time. I need some space. Sorry this is long and rambling. I don't even know what I'm asking for or needing right now. Maybe I just needed to get it out.

So I've been off cymbalta for 1 month. I went from 40mg down to 20mg for 2 weeks then stopped. I had a lot of mild physical withdrawal symptoms. I felt off. Almost like I was walking on a boat. Nightmares, sleep disturbances, irritability ect. Most of that has went completely away but I have super horrible depression/anxiety. I cry daily. I'm overwhelmed. I do have a ton of things going on personally so idk if that is making it worse. I was on the cymbalta for pain, not any kind of depression. I know my vitamin D is very low as well as iron. Probably most of my vitamin levels are low honestly. I bought some good D3+k2, vitamin c plus zinc and B vitamins and iron. Is there anything more I can do? I hate my new dr and don't want to go see her and I couldn't afford a new prescription anyway.

I had to quit my previous job because I had a severe asthma attack with lung failure. I'm back to work at a lesser paying job. I'd like to take my daughter to the st louis zoo for a mental health day. She has barely left the house in months because I can't afford it. Until I get several paychecks. The zoo is free but parking is 20 plus gas, drinks and snacks. It won't probably cost the 100 total and I can repay quickly, probably before 6/15. I can provide proof on employment and income. I really really want to go Tuesday. Any help appreciated.

I am looking to borrow 100 dollars. I have been going through a job change and am getting back on my feet. I would like to take my 16 yr old daughter to the st louis zoo for a mental health day. She hasn't left the house (she's home schooled) simply because I haven't had the extra money.

I need 20 for parking

Some money for gas

And a little for drinks and a snack.

I can pay back quicker than date listed, just wanted some wiggle room. We would really appreciate any help. I was going to ask my dad but he thinks it's a waste of money but she really really needs a mental break.

Can supply pay stubs, a screen grab of my paycom pay app, I have direct deposit. Can use PayPal or cash app.

I appreciate the help.