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"CONSTANT BLISS! TOTAL COSMIC ECSTACY! HAPPINESS FOREVER!!!"

Meanwhile samadhi is just when your mind quiets down and you're chilling in equanimity and there aren't really any emotional highs

The constant bliss part is horrible. It pulls you in with the promise of something amazing and you eventually experience no mind and there's not much bliss at all, just stillness

There are definitely a bunch of actual gurus who say that samadhi is ordinary and nothing special. I can't name them or even quote them really but I'm pretty sure a bunch of gurus have said it's nothing special

Idk

You meditate, watch your thoughts, notice the gap between your thoughts

You do this night after night, and eventually the gaps are so big that there's like a minute between a thought you have

Now what? Sure your mind is quieter and you're calmer, you have achieved a degree of turiya/samadhi, you feel very equanimous

But where do you from here? What's the point? It doesn't get you more money, doesnt get you more women doesn't get you more of anything really .. I mean except more peace I guess

You might say thats not the point of a meditation practice, but really, whats the point of something if it doesn't get you any results in the real world?

Im not sure if I'm in no mind, but I do know that my mind is very quiet and barely has thoughts. And if I do have thoughts they just fly by and I don't get pulled into them. So maybe I am in no mind? I'm not sure, but if I am, I am pretty disappointed

Some masters say that no mind is ordinary and nothing special, and I just thought they were talking out of their ass. Because there are other people who say no mind is like total bliss and all of that

I was very interested in the bliss aspect. You mean I can feel happy as fook all the time? Count me in. So i "worked towards" the no mind state

Now that I barely have any thoughts, I don't feel any bliss and feel like the guys who said it was ordinary weren't lying and that maybe its the people saying that it's bliss and all that are maybe just trying to sell something

I'm really not sure, but all i know is that I don't feel any bliss, and all I do feel is this "all encompassing peace". Like I feel very still and peaceful internally. Which isn't bad, but I was just expecting something more

Anyway maybe I'm crazy and I'm not in no mind at all and I'm talking out my ass like crazy, but that's my experience

Say you make $20-$25 an hour. How do you survive? Rent, food, etc. Do you have roommates? On food stamps? 🤔

Probation ends in August but I don't gotta go anymore my po said. Feelsgoodmang, I made a post on here last year saying it was so over and I had a warrant out for my arrest because violation and that I hadn't checked in with my po for months but it ended up good. Warrant was quashed and I just had to continue my probation. Sure I had to check in like 3-4 times for months but now it's basically all over. Time to have a celebratory fap

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