u/sosindisguise

= since I was a kid I wanted something that I could never have

Some people tell me that I look okay and stuff like "you're just average" and that hurts me even more

These days I feel even worse cuz they took pictures of me at an event my nose looked big and my face looked asymmetric in a way I don't see in the mirror

In the mirror I look fine, but every time I see pictures taken of me esp. using back cameras I feel ugly, depressed and like life is not worth living

I have a choirmate who looks incredibly pretty and every time I look at his pics or at him I feel very bad about myself

Sometimes I think I'm not going to have a boyfriend cuz of that no personality no remarkable looks nothing special . I'm fine with someone being smarter funnier richer but not prettier than me

And that could never change

that's it

= since I was a kid I wanted something that I could never have

Some people tell me that I look okay and stuff like "you're just average" and that hurts me even more

These days I feel even worse cuz they took pictures of me at an event my nose looked big and my face looked asymmetric in a way I don't see in the mirror

In the mirror I look fine, but every time I see pictures taken of me esp. using back cameras I feel ugly, depressed and like life is not worth living

I have a choirmate who looks incredibly pretty and every time I look at his pics or at him I feel very bad about myself

Sometimes I think I'm not going to have a boyfriend cuz of that no personality no remarkable looks nothing special . I'm fine with someone being smarter funnier richer but not prettier than me

And that could never change

that's it

= since I was a kid I wanted something that I could never have

Some people tell me that I look okay and stuff like "you're just average" and that hurts me even more

These days I feel even worse cuz they took pictures of me at an event my nose looked big and my face looked asymmetric in a way I don't see in the mirror

In the mirror I look fine, but every time I see pictures taken of me esp. using back cameras I feel ugly, depressed and like life is not worth living

I have a choirmate who looks incredibly pretty and every time I look at his pics or at him I feel very bad about myself

Sometimes I think I'm not going to have a boyfriend cuz of that no personality no remarkable looks nothing special . I'm fine with someone being smarter funnier richer but not prettier than me

And that could never change

that's it

I'm trying to sleep rn. I can't so I decided to write sth.

Life is getting too hard to live