u/speroni

I was flying home and got sat next to some old guy who was having personal space issues. And he had that vibe so I just tried to lean the other way.

So finally we land and stand up in the aisle to get some space and some old lady ahead of us was having issues and for some reason he needed to be the one to help and decided the solution was to try and shove me out of the way with his body to go where there are already people standing anyway.

And I said "Would you stop touching me."

And he has a complete meltdown. It was honestly bizarre. I think he didn't realize I wasn't a cis woman until I asked him to stop touching me.

He spent the next 15 minutes as we deplaned yelling in my ear.

I was flying home and got sat next to some old guy who was having personal space issues. And he had that vibe so I just tried to lean the other way.

So finally we land and stand up in the aisle to get some space and some old lady ahead of us was having issues and for some reason he needed to be the one to help and decided the solution was to try and shove me out of the way with his body to go where there are already people standing anyway.

And I said "Would you stop touching me."

And he has a complete meltdown. It was honestly bizarre. I think he didn't realize I wasn't a cis woman until I asked him to stop touching me.

He spent the next 15 minutes as we deplaned yelling in my ear.

I want to write a fan fic story about a trans radiant, but I keep finding that my story wants to contradict itself.

On one hand I really want to see a trans woman have her body healed so it matches her soul. There's an argument to be made that almost all trans people are going to have cracks in their spirit web due to the fact that their soul doesn't fit in their body right and all this other stuff. (Unless its like some really lucky trans person that actually has supportive parents or something?)

But on the other hand, I'm pretty certain that one of my ideals would need to be something like: I will quit worrying about passing, and not worry about how other people perceive me.

So then it seems like the story is at cross purposes if it focuses on self acceptance, but also on getting that sweet healing magic.

I'm unsure how to disentangle it.

Edit: Yes like Ral-na, but that happened off camera.

What do you do for skin care? Do you have a recommended routine? Do you do your whole body? What products? How often?

The skin on my face seems to go through periods where it's very soft, but then it reverts back into a somewhat rougher texture. I'm not sure why it changes. My meds are pretty consistent as are my levels whenever I get them checked.

It's been about a year of hrt.

Overall it has been a life-saver, but I'm disappointed I didn't get more progress towards being femme. Time to start scheduling surgeries.

Based on the hrt progress... I'm not ever really going to pass and I'm pretty sad about it. Like my therapist seems concerned sad.

My face is softer, my ass is a little fatter, and I got some boobage, but overall I look pretty masc. If I do my makeup nice and put on a dress I pass from a distance I guess. I get mostly masc pronouns unless people don't see me directly. I think I'm definitely boyfailing but a long way from girl passing.

I need to work on weight-loss. With some med changes and other things I've been struggling with weight loss most of the year, but I've got it together on the last month or so, I just need to keep it up. The muscle loss makes it a lot harder.

I called for ffs, but it seems like the wait time on that is going to be 1.5 to 2 years with the doctor I wanted. I'm pretty frustrated about that. I hate my face. I look like my dad, that abusive fuck.

The boobs are coming in nice, but they're not as sensitive as I hoped. Why would that be? My nipples dont seem very womanly either.

My makeup game is pretty on-point. I've got some dresses, skirts, and stuff that I like and shoes that I really like. I've got this simple little pair of black Mary Jane's that I just adore. My hair is nice and long, and a mix of pink and blue. My hair is much cooler than I am.

The hrt mostly cured my bald spot and stopped the damage with the hair line. So I might be ok with that.

Lasers on the beard. Going to switch to electrolysis when the lasers stop working.

Most of the year I've felt much better than pre-transition, although lately I'm feeling frustrated. Like a lot better. Not being in the closet to myself, accepting myself, not being complicit in my own suppression has been more amazing than anything.

I worry a lot about the government. I don't know what to do there. I'd try and leave the country if it weren't for joint custody of kids with an ex-wife.

So... it's a slow start, but started.

It's been about a year of hrt.

Overall it has been a life-saver, but I'm disappointed I didn't get more progress towards being femme. Time to start scheduling surgeries.

Based on the hrt progress... I'm not ever really going to pass and I'm pretty sad about it. Like my therapist seems concerned sad.

My face is softer, my ass is a little fatter, and I got some boobage, but overall I look pretty masc. If I do my makeup nice and put on a dress I pass from a distance I guess. I get mostly masc pronouns unless people don't see me directly. I think I'm definitely boyfailing but a long way from girl passing.

I need to work on weight-loss. With some med changes and other things I've been struggling with weight loss most of the year, but I've got it together on the last month or so, I just need to keep it up. The muscle loss makes it a lot harder.

I called for ffs, but it seems like the wait time on that is going to be 1.5 to 2 years with the doctor I wanted. I'm pretty frustrated about that. I hate my face. I look like my dad, that abusive fuck.

The boobs are coming in nice, but they're not as sensitive as I hoped. Why would that be? My nipples dont seem very womanly either.

My makeup game is pretty on-point. I've got some dresses, skirts, and stuff that I like and shoes that I really like. I've got this simple little pair of black Mary Jane's that I just adore. My hair is nice and long, and a mix of pink and blue. My hair is much cooler than I am.

The hrt mostly cured my bald spot and stopped the damage with the hair line. So I might be ok with that.

Lasers on the beard. Going to switch to electrolysis when the lasers stop working.

Most of the year I've felt much better than pre-transition, although lately I'm feeling frustrated. Like a lot better. Not being in the closet to myself, accepting myself, not being complicit in my own suppression has been more amazing than anything.

I worry a lot about the government. I don't know what to do there. I'd try and leave the country if it weren't for joint custody of kids with an ex-wife.

So... it's a slow start, but started.

It's been about a year of hrt.

Overall it has been a life-saver, but I'm disappointed I didn't get more progress towards being femme. Time to start scheduling surgeries.

Based on the hrt progress... I'm not ever really going to pass and I'm pretty sad about it. Like my therapist seems concerned sad.

My face is softer, my ass is a little fatter, and I got some boobage, but overall I look pretty masc. If I do my makeup nice and put on a dress I pass from a distance I guess. I get mostly masc pronouns unless people don't see me directly. I think I'm definitely boyfailing but a long way from girl passing.

I need to work on weight-loss. With some med changes and other things I've been struggling with weight loss most of the year, but I've got it together on the last month or so, I just need to keep it up. The muscle loss makes it a lot harder.

I called for ffs, but it seems like the wait time on that is going to be 1.5 to 2 years with the doctor I wanted. I'm pretty frustrated about that. I hate my face. I look like my dad, that abusive fuck.

The boobs are coming in nice, but they're not as sensitive as I hoped. Why would that be? My nipples dont seem very womanly either.

My makeup game is pretty on-point. I've got some dresses, skirts, and stuff that I like and shoes that I really like. I've got this simple little pair of black Mary Jane's that I just adore. My hair is nice and long, and a mix of pink and blue. My hair is much cooler than I am.

The hrt mostly cured my bald spot and stopped the damage with the hair line. So I might be ok with that.

Lasers on the beard. Going to switch to electrolysis when the lasers stop working.

Most of the year I've felt much better than pre-transition, although lately I'm feeling frustrated. Like a lot better. Not being in the closet to myself, accepting myself, not being complicit in my own suppression has been more amazing than anything.

I worry a lot about the government. I don't know what to do there. I'd try and leave the country if it weren't for joint custody of kids with an ex-wife.

So... it's a slow start, but started.