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My girlfriend's bday is coming up, and I bought the hissfits for her! The thing is, they were 210 dollars. Spending so much on dolls feels so daunting, but it was the best price I could find. I just wanted to ask, do you guys think they were worth it? I'm sure my girlfriend's reaction will take all of the small bits of regret I feel, but I just wanted other perspectives on it. I also asked if she'd be okay with one big gift rather than multiple small ones, so I really hope she'll be happy with them!! I usually wouldn't feel so guilty spending so much on my girl, but I'm unemployed as well 😭 but you know what, a decent price only comes around so often, and I'll find a new job eventually.

As the title suggests, my girlfriend's birthday is next month. I'm writing a letter to her every night talking about what we did that day and how much I love her. This is a sappy gift centered on our relationship, and I'm wondering if that's okay? Is it impolite to gift something romantic on an occasion that isn't our anniversary? Additionally, this won't be her only gift of course. We both love monster high, so I plan on buying her some dolls as well. That's all, thank you :)

This will be a lot of rambling, sorry I don't care. I adore my girlfriend. She's so lovely and I'm so mentally ill I feel so bad for being sensitive and for when I unintentionally cause issues, but she is so so kind and patient towards me. We've been together a year, and we've had no major issues. We talk out every problem we have and we spend so much time together and no moment with her feels dull. Every minute I spend with her makes me feel so happy and grateful. I've been so incredibly depressed and hurt over the years (just look at my history, yikes.) but she truly makes me feel more loved than I ever thought possible. I can't wait until we're able to move in together. I mean, she literally wants to get a vasectomy for me because she knows how dangerous birth control can be. (Yes she is trans.) We watched the backrooms movie, fooled around a little at her house, and then watched how to lose a guy in 10 days. Such a lovely day. She's so positive and sweet and kind, I truly adore her so much. In a society that hates trans people, especially trans women, I'm so happy to say that my girl is the sweetest girl I've ever met, and her outlook on the world is so beautiful. I don't know how anyone could be as calm and level headed as she is, truly. She inspires me to be better, and I'm truly trying for her, because I know we're gonna get married one day. I fully believe it, and I've never been so confident in such a future for myself. Hell, we started dating after a week of talking. I'd never recommend doing that to anyone, but when you know, you know. I know we're young. I'm 18 and she's 19. But I want a future with this woman, I truly know it, and I know we'll make it happen. I love her more than words could ever say. She's asleep right now, but I just wanted to rant about how much I adore her. She's my angel.

Mentions of SA and suicidal thoughts. I'm F18. When I was 16, I was incredibly mentally ill. I barely even remember what happened, but I dated a girl at the time. I'll just call her Lola. Me and Lola dated for 7 months before things ended really bad. She said I sexually assaulted her. I always denied it, because I truly did believe that everything we did was consensual, but now I don't know. I had lost all of my friends at the time, and I was completely alone. She said I guilted her into sex. I really believe I didn't even realize this, but I feel so disgusting for it. Now that it's been nearly 2 years, maybe I really did sexually assault her. Coercion is a form of rape which made it even worse at the time, and I denied it. She said she didn't consider it rape, just sexual assault. Besides the sexual assault, we had a bad relationship. I don't remember a lot of it, but I know there were a lot of fights, and she was never very kind towards me. (This doesn't excuse what I did at all, I'm just trying to explain how she wasn't understanding of my mental health whatsoever. She was a very cruel person.) After the breakup, like I said, I lost everything. I wanted to kill myself, and she called the cops on me. I'm okay now. I've been doing so much work on myself, and I know I've gotten better, especially mentally. That relationship aside, I never thought I'd make it to 18.

I have a new girlfriend now. I truly believe she's the love of my life. We've been together nearly a year now, and there's been no problems. Serious conversations here and there, but she's truly the most gentle, patient, kind, and understanding person I've ever known, and I'm not even exaggerating. My ex has made me so paranoid (rightfully so), and I truly make it a point to make sure that everything we do is consensual. Our sex life has been great, and there have been no problems. I have her clarify each time, and we both make sure the other feels comfortable and safe. Well, looking back, I still feel disgusting. I told her that my ex "accused me of rape," but I've never elaborated. Maybe deep down I'm beginning to realize I did sexually assault my ex, intentional or not, and I feel so horrible. I feel like there's no way I'll ever be a better person. How can someone atone for something so awful? How I feel doesn't compare to how I made my ex feel, and I'm sure she's still dealing with the consequences of my actions. I don't know how much a person can change in two years. I'm better with communication, better with managing my emotions, better mentally, all of these things. But none of this makes up for what I've done. How can I possibly live with myself? Will I always be a disgusting person? My girlfriend says I'm perfect, but I'm far from it. I just don't know what to do. There's nothing that I can do. I feel I will always be a horrible person, and I deserve everything bad that comes my way. I never thought I could sexually assault someone. I'm disgusting.