u/superpeachgalaxy

cw: Body anxiety, surgery talk, stitches, mention of sex and wound

I was born with a bilateral cleft lip, my palate intact if not slightly weak. I've had 4 surgeries and my last one was when I was 9, so about 15 years ago. I dealt with a split upper lip in December that sent me into a spiral because it would. Not. Heal. It scared the life out of me, I kept thinking, "my lip is going to come undone," like I had a horrific image in my head. Like, I knew my lip would heal just fine, but the fear was crazy.

The work from over a decade ago is completely healed, I had incisions leading up into the beginning of my inner nostrils to tighten the lip and pull the skin up to create a cupid's bow of sorts. It seems they did some other fanagling because my stitches on my actual lip were angled very particularly, like they were literally manipulating the flesh of my lip and mouth to look like a "normal" lip. That's my very vague understanding of it. I should ask more questions. I had stitches leading into my mouth that eventually dissolved.

ANYWAY TL;DR SKIP TO HERE!!!

I recently hurt my mouth with my teeth during oral sex, I had pulled my lip over my teeth and I ended up hurting myself. There is very faint bruising and blood and it is tender and stings when I press my tongue against it. I feel scared. It's fine, I know it's fine, but I have no doctor to share these fears with. I don't share them with my mom because I don't want to stress her out. I don't share with my partner because I don't want him to feel guilty. These lips were expensive and I don't want to kick up a fuss about them but I also want to protect them. My lip isn't going to come undone right?

breakfast?

Favorite local coffee joint that also has scratch made donuts?

I need advice or reassurance, help?

Ladies, what's your favorite thing about Nikaido?