u/takemetoyourgoddess

Idk who to ask this question to or I’ll get called misandrist or a femcel, but I just do not and cannot like men outside of anything sexual where they are the sub while I absolutely love and adore women + I have only dated women, would this just make me bisexual or something else?

For my graduation celebration my dad said he’d be getting me a MacBook, which I am extremely happy about ofc, but I’m not very good on knowing which computer would be better to use for gaming especially if I own multiple games, so would a MacBook be a better option to get or instead the neo laptop? Im aware the MacBook is more expensive which is why im asking this.

This issue has always been on my mind ever since I went on twitter again, but it is also the reason I started using it less in the first place.

I noticed since like 2024 that whenever twitter users attempt to praise people, but mostly women’s bodies if they are on the larger side, they always use gross sexual terms and stuff like “I love bbw!!!” Or they say “I love fat bitches” and I especially hate that they use the word bitch towards us when trying to compliment our bodies😕

Like genuinely I never see any other sort of praise from people about fat people that isn’t just dehumanizing us down to our sex appeal, and whenever you point stuff like this out, u get called fatphobic or people accuse you of thinking fat people cannot be sexy or they aren’t allowed to feel sexy in any way. And it isn’t limited to just women, because dad’s bods which is basically a slight buff but somewhat chubby man’s physical appearance from below the neck, and then the term “bear” which is fat men who are very hairy basically everywhere on their body.

I just wish shit like this wasn’t so normalized, because it has a genuine affect on people and makes them believe they need to self sexualize themselves so they aren’t shamed for being fat and gives people who have a genuine fetish for overweight people more freedom to keep sexualizing us, nobody ever sees us outside of our physical appearance and it just sucks ass + There’s even men who will specifically seek out fat women because we are almost always perceived as desperate and longing for any sort of connection with men.

I’m a teenager and ik I have my whole life ahead of me like older people say but the beauty standards of boys my age is absolutely insufferable, and I am ugly and fat anyways so I know I will barely have any luck with dating but I still hate it a lot. I kinda feel like a pick me a lot because I have an issue with almost immediately being attracted to any boy i talk to that I find cool to be around but ultimately my hopes dry up because I don’t fit certain preferences they like. I have a male friend I met a while ago who is my age and he’s genuinely very attractive, and we kinda had a convo yesterday and he brought up how he liked that I’m big chested and I liked that even though I also felt somewhat unhappy with it because I’m always sexualized by men or other boys because of that, but only because I liked him i liked the compliment, but today I had another male friend saying he likes flat chested girls more and I kinda got annoyed so I ranted to the male friend I liked about it, and he said he doesn’t like big boobs either and it just made me extremely upset, kinda to the point where I lost all my attraction to him from that response, it seems like he noticed it annoyed me with how he responded because I didn’t talk to him after that and he didn’t reply back. This has basically been every single scenario of my life when im talking to boys i liked and lowkey I feel like I’m cursed to just not ever find a dude who will like me no matter what, and considering the fact that I’m a black girl especially a fat one I’ve realized im just undesirable completely so idk anymore, this post is kinda corny but what do u think.