these are pretty old but i do still love them! random mix of stuff i found on pinterest, stickers, photos from my fave concerts, etc. i love playing around with super saturated colours :)
trigger warning for sexual topics, i think! nothing graphic, just... how i've been feeling lately. everything feels doomed, everything feels so painful. i don't know what to do. i keep getting reduced to nothing but a personal satisfaction object for men, and it feels like there's nothing i can do about it.
i've been working here for a few months and management is so blatantly abusive towards staff. the entire management is comprised of family members + childhood friends of management. there's been nearly 20 staff turnovers in the past 2 years and they refuse to hire anyone else despite being unfathomably understaffed.
a good friend offered me this position because he knows the owner of the company, but the owner extremely hands off and doesn't know the inner workings at all (so that's another shitty aspect in itself -- but i'm planning to tell him everything as i've recorded nearly every meeting since i realised things were getting toxic. i even have a clip of management saying "FUCK HIM!").
i can't leave yet because of the money, but i'm actively in the process of looking for other jobs which thankfully has been a decent search so far. but there are other factors tying me to this job like responsibility towards the... i don't want to say product, because they're not products at all, but we'll say... talents? they are the sweetest souls who also have their grievances with this company, and i can't bear to leave them (even though i will eventually in the next month or so). maybe this might tell you more about the company -- but think along the lines of influencer/media/KOL/social media.
this company will tell you one thing to your face, change it and not tell you, and when they flame you for it, you're the one in the wrong. this has happened multiple times, and i have every single ounce of proof. they gallivant in to the office at 12pm and leave at 4pm, smoking in the office which affects the health of multiple people (which i am also planning to report).
we used to get food during work because of the busy schedule, but we don't anymore. but the FUCKING AWESOME KICKER!!! is that the management gets food when they're easily sitting on their asses for hours while the bloody worms get their physical and digital work done. every single non-management staff has detailed their abuse amongst us and we're sick of it. everyone is underpaid, too.
they text WAY beyond working hours and get angry when you don't cater to their every useless whim. and HR is a disgusting misogynist with anger issues who hates letting other people speak, which at least 5+ staff can confirm. no way can go to him bro
they claim to have no money but i know for a fact that their returns are sky high. money is going into pockets rather than going back into the company, but unfortunately i can't prove this specific fact despite speculation from multiple staff.
i want to name and shame so fucking bad but i can't do it at this very moment because of the circumstances of the job and i don't want to be sued (with what money idk la). i will do it once i leave the company, so pls do hopefully anticipate an update once i tell the owner of the company what's going on + i'm honestly willing to report this to the labour office. this is only 5% of what they've done, i haven't detailed their VERY provable fraud.
i have to get fucking medicated again because of this workplace and the management when i've been clean from any sort of psychiatric medication for years. i don't know how to keep holding on for a few more months.
idk maybe more edits to come la if i'm in the mood to talk more shit