u/that_red_panda

I was diagnosed officially on 5th July, I always suspected I had it and it was good to have my suspicions confirmed at the age of 37. But honestly, it hasn't really "sunk in" until yesterday after I had my medication appointment. I'm being prescribed 18mm of Xaggitin, which all goes to plan, I start Sunday morning.

I had a moment of "oh this is real now" when I got the prescription. This is no longer a suspicion, It's a real thing that is going on in my brain. Reading about the medication, how it's classed as a Class B drug here in the UK. How I need to be careful with the drugs, not just in taking them but making sure that I sign the right paperwork, do the homework if I ever want to travel abroad with my meds. Even travelling in the UK, there are strict rules because it could technically count as a possession charge by the police if I throw my ADHD meds into a pillbox instead of the bottle the pharmacy gave me (I have since learned putting ADHD meds in a pill box isn't a good idea because it can spoil the tablets)

I think the biggest part is just realisation of it all. How I was growing up, how I am now. How I've been struggling with things like my university degree. I LOVE my subject but last year was so difficult and I feel like I could have made it a lot easier for myself if I was diagnosed as a child. But I think the worst part is that I felt like I'm broken in some weird way, that I potentially need medication to be a "normal" person and all the times I have annoyed people, or upset them with my ADHD tendencies made me a bad person, I almost feel the need to message everyone I know and straight up apologise to them, but the rational part of me knows that’s just my inner critic/bully speaking.

it's been a lot to take in and I don't want to annoy my friends and family by constantly talking about my new diagnosis, and after sitting here this evening, I just wanted to spew words into the void.

Thanks for reading if you're still here. I really appropriate it.

Didn't know what to put for the flair as it's more rambling that ranting/venting.

Anyway, I was diagnosed officially on 5th July, I always suspected I had it and it was good to have my suspicions confirmed at the age of 37. But honestly, it hasn't really "sunk in" until yesterday after I had my medication appointment. I'm being prescribed 18mm of Xaggitin, which all goes to plan, I start Sunday morning.

But that's the thing, I had a moment of "oh this is real now" when I got the prescription. This is no longer a suspicion, this is a real thing that is going on in my brain. And reading about the medication, how it's classed as a Class B drug here in the UK. How I need to be careful with the drugs, not just in taking them but making sure that I sign the right paper work and do the homework if I ever want to travel abroad with my meds. Heck, even travelling in the UK, there are strict rules because it could technically count as a possession charge by the police if I was to say, throw my ADHD meds into a pillbox instead of the bottle the pharmacy gave me (I have since learned that putting ADHD meds in a pill box isn't a good idea because it can spoil the tablets)

But I think the biggest part if it is just realisation of it all. How I was growing up, how I am now. How I've been struggling with things like my university degree I am doing. I am working towards a psychology degree and I LOVE my subject but last year was so difficult and I feel like I could have made it a lot easier for myself if I was diagnosed as a child. But I think the worst part is that I felt like I'm broken in some weird way, that I potentially need medication to be a "normal" person and all the times I have annoyed people, or upset them with my ADHD tendencies made me a bad person, I almost feel the need to message everyone I know and straight up apologise to them, but the rational part of me knows that’s just my inner critic/bully speaking.

Alas, it's been a lot to take in and I don't want to annoy my friends and family by constantly talking about my new diagnosis, and after sitting here this evening, I just wanted to spew words into the void.

Not entirely sure what I was doing with this post but I do feel a little better. Thanks for reading if you're still here. I really appropriate it. Have a cat, her name is Pepper, she believes in you!

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Just picked up a Volkswagen Type 2 camper because I love the idea of making a hippy wagon turned war machine but I'm having trouble picking what vehicle type to label it as because it's not quite the size of a bus and it isn't quite a truck.

And recommendations?