u/thisismaru

it's so weird how transmedicalists who just want to uphold the capitalistic, gender-based system invented a slur for people who are transgender, but don't feel gender in a traditional, boxy way. in all honesty, i fail to see what they are trying to achieve other than divide the entire trans and queer community, when especially now, we should be together and fight alongside one another against bigotry and the increasing oppression of today.

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it's so frustrating how they are mimicking the same people who would oppress them at any given moment. looking cisgender shouldn't be seen as a positive virtue the same way as looking transgender shouldn't be perceived as negative or weird. you don't know what that person is going through, and gender is everything but a monolith. it's a spectrum of countless experiences and lives that are more than worth studying, and if everyone gave knowledge a chance, most (if not all) of the discrimination, biases and stigma would go away in an instant.

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it's truly so discouraging to see this kind of attitude from fellow marginalized groups, and it breaks my heart as a neurodivergent trans individual.

i'm thinking about writing a book that's heavily inspired by stranger things, and i genuinely think that max should've had more physical repercussion than what we were given. i'm thinking about arthritis, neurological disorders (other than ptsd), epilepsy, etc.

does anyone have any idea? there's so much to work with lol

‼️NEED SUPPORT INCOMING. I CAN'T DOUBLE FLAIR‼️

i'm almost 17 years old, and i feel like i can barely function socially, except for with my close friends. i mostly stay quiet as to not interrupt others when they're speaking, but no one makes an effort to initiate anything with me. my therapist told me i was really extroverted, and i really thought that for a while, but given my behavior, i'm starting to heavily question that.

i've had horrible social moments in the past. a friend i had at age 13 left me with a trauma, i've been teased non-stop for being autistic ever since i was a child, i'm constantly scared of what others think of me, and so on. i'm also struggling with grief (my grandfather died roughly 3 months ago), and i'm learning tons of social skills on a whim. i'm as good at socializing as a 6-7 year old (pun intended, but i'm serious LOL), and i find it really easy and automatic to spiral into a mental crisis, silent self-deprecating episodes, and self-destructive/suicidal thoughts (hence the double flair).

but, even despite all of these difficulties, i'm a very loving person, and i have no bad intent, even if my actions can be wrong. i struggle to actually learn from my mistakes, no matter the effort, and that makes me feel worthless. every time i try to get close to someone, they ask for space. everything i try is seen as overbearing.

i miss being able to actually form bonds with people. i feel like i'm stuck in cycles, and that no matter what, everything is against me. i wanna restart my life from age 4 and redo all of it.

before i get taken down, this isn't shade, just a genuine question. if i ever seem too blunt, it's because it's how i tend to communicate on a daily basis. i'm autistic and controlling my tone is hard.

if this sub is mostly mileven centered, why don't you go to other subs like r/mileven, r/milever, or the actual r/strangerthings sub? it seems kinda pointless to me if this is just another m11 sub lol

mostly because every post i see in this forum is mostly m11 centered, and i haven't seen other fanbases doing the same. if sm1 can explain, thank you :D