u/throwaway50695020

Hi, all, I am a 13-year-old. I am homeschooled, and have zero friends, have never had a friend in my life. Recently, i have been seeing youtube shorts talking about how bad america is, and all the comments are are non-americans talking about how much better their country is, but i know damn well i will never be able to leave america.
so my plan is to commit suicide by 18, if i even make it to 18. Whether it be from a self-inflicted gun wound, hanging, or overdose, i'd die! THERE IS NO HOPE IN BEING AN ADULT IN AMERICA! ALL IT IS IS PAIN AND SUFFERING? I SO BADLY WISH I WAS BORN ANYWHERE ELSE, BUT NO! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooOOOOOOOOOOooOOooOOOOooOOooOOooOooOOoOOoOoOOoo!!!!!!!!!!111111111111111!!!!!. I'M FUCKING TIRED OF LIVING!!!!!!!!! THERE IS NO HOPE! NONE :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))())())))))))))))))))))))))))))))
so, if anyone has advice, please send it my way (closeted trans woman living with a bigoted dad by the way, never will be able to be myself. i have no one to talk to, and i've already tried crisis lines, they were useless)

My mom homeschools me, and expects me not to talk to anyone online. Bitch I'm not getting groomed by a mcdonalds cashier from arkansas, i'm fine. Overprotective parents act like EVERYONE online is trying hit like damn. Was anyone else's parents like this?

I am naming them Eric Theodore, Kyle Benjamin, Kenneth (Kenny for short) and Stanley! (stan for short). Our surname is Marsh!
aren't these beautiful names? they are being born in Denver

is it a tragdeigh? I kinda like it

I know some of these were popular before, but they reached their peak in these years. I'd totally name my baby Rachel or Matthew. Ryan and Sarah too.

i have a half brother, but i am my moms first and only child, and i am being raised without any other sibling

my parents were oad's. I was homeschooled and grew up without anyone. I desperately wanted a sibling to hang out with. 2 kids is fine, 3 is pushing it. I spent a lot of my childhood alone.

throwaway account, obviously. I am a girl named Carson, and i FUCKING HATE MY NAME. I am very, very feminine, and my name doesn't fit me. I have been misgendered constantly. I am so sad seeing this become a trendy female name. In College, I CONSTANTLY had my emails and letter with "Mr." on it. Before people meet me, they assume I am a man because of my name. I don't even have a feminine middle name to use either. I am changing my name, and I am picking Samantha Marie as my name.