Water color and oil on canvas, trying to depict the abstract feeling of survivor’s guilt

I’ll take any and all suggestions for how to improve. I haven’t painted since art class in school. I didn’t have water color white so I used some oil paint I found but I know those don’t really mix. I didn’t mix the water color with much water, and mainly put it right on the canvas. I used my fingers for a lot of it. Thanks for your help!

u/tricksofradiance — 7 days ago
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You should be watching Mr. Quest

Every time someone pops up from Sunny it makes me so happy

u/UnitEastern8840 — 9 days ago

Prescribed meds & drug test

Hi- I will be completing a drug test prior to starting in a health program. I see that they test for adhd meds. What about if we have a prescription for these meds due to an adhd diagnosis? I don’t want to email anybody this early and single myself out with medical info I would like to keep private from teachers. Does anyone have experience with this? Thank you

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u/tricksofradiance — 1 month ago

This dying lady

Gave me a card
That said
‘Caught being kind’
Because I gave her her mango dragonfruit refresher for free
Because I said “oh, is that a breast cancer ribbon?”
When she showed me her phone case
And it had a pink cancer ribbon
I said I have breast cancer
And she said no it’s some rare cancer
I’m dying
I only have a few weeks to live
I said oh god I’m sorry
She said it’s fine
I’m just so glad we hadn’t changed the recipe yet
Cuz I would hate to have to explain that to her
As she drove and got her thing
Before she couldn’t drive
I haven’t seen her since we changed the recipe
And I get that it’s a corporation
And things are gonna change
And I hang onto this corporation
For the health insurance
Cuz I have cancer
And it’s cool that I can even work here still with only one good arm
Cuz breast cancer gets your arms, too
And I think about her every single day
Because I haven’t seen her in months
And I wonder if she had to try the new weird refresher
With the aftertaste
And I hope she’s happy and okay
But I wonder if she died
Because I haven’t seen her in months
And that’s the shit they don’t tell you about when you’re 23 and you apply to be a barista and you think it’s some short term job but you’re still here and you get sick and you get stuck cuz you’re sick and you see a lot of you customers die
Like Cecil, he was the first one that I remember dying for sure
And somehow I’m still here
And I’m still really young, like too young to have cancer, but where will I get this health insurance?!
Did she die? What was her name? She used to come every day
So I know
But I don’t really know know
But I know
I have the ‘caught being kind’ card stuck in my dresser mirror
So I see it every day, many times a day
All I did was give her one drink for free
Ugh this fckin job

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u/tricksofradiance — 2 months ago