u/tulleche

My lease started just a few months ago and my landlord provided a mattress. Idk if it was used by the previous tenant but it looked good. I think it’s fully foam and the bed frame is fully fabric. I think… there are no springs. Idk how the interior looks like. All was good for 3 months, comfortable, and all of a sudden it became sunken. And it’s almost instant. This started just a few days ago, I would sit in a spot for a few minutes and notice the mattress sinking. Move elsewhere and the spot would sink in minutes.

What’s going on? The areas aren’t super sunken (yet?) but it feels almost flatten.

My current routine is pretty simple: cleanser, hyaluronic acid, niacinamide + txa, retinol 0.025%, moisturizer, sunscreen. I apply a clay mask at least once a week.

My skin isn’t that bad especially when compared to my teenage self where it was intensely oily, red and fungal acne everywhere, pimples too but no cystic acne. Acne wasn’t an issue I had I think, besides the occasional ones even now due to my menstrual cycle, my skin is still oily but not as bad

Currently: I still have large pores around my inner cheeks, entire nose, chin, skin redness, and now my fungal acne seem to have returned lately after all these years but it’s not as bad as before. I have some pimples spots. Basically, my skin is neither here nor there. Nobody irl would look at me and notice my skin issues right away, and it’s not dull or anything, but it’s not hitting that next milestone for me. I’m 25 now and my skin looked best at 23 even though my routine is the same. It was smooth and glowy but I still had large pores and skin redness these 2 issues have been with me since puberty 😓 but I eat healthier at 25 than 23, mostly whole food diet + I cook 99% of the time.

If I start on Tret, what other products should I invest in and how should I expect my journey to unfold? I read there’s also a purging phase? Do I need other products?

I bought one of their tablets for 3 reasons: I specifically wanted to use their GoPaint (their version of procreate), iPad’s price isn’t justifiable (to me, especially the fact you have to buy the pencil separately), and I wanted to try a non-Apple brand because I’ve been using Apple for as long as I can remember.

I didn’t think much, because I literally wanted this tablet TO DRAW and nothing else. So I set up the tablet and then comes the privacy policy which I decided to read. They pretty much collect a lot of data which you can opt out of. One of their AI features will require them to extract and process your entire gallery lmfao it’s just egregious. I think Apple does it too (that’s why they can identify everything in your gallery) but if you’re careful throughout the process you can opt out.

Then comes GoPaint. The only application for some reason that has zero opt out. In their policy it states they will collect and process ALL artworks and imported images. I find that fucking crazy it’s a drawing app? Genuinely what do you want from it? This isn’t if you saved on their cloud it’s just straight up whatever you make it’ll get stored and processed into their servers.

So I messaged their customer service and they were initially all over the place telling me that the app operates just like procreate where files are saved locally which was clearly untrue. Anyway I told them I didn’t find this acceptable and asked if I could return it because I have zero use for this since the one application I bought this for has this sort of apparent need for it to be functional.

And of course they said no along with a bunch of other standard customer service crap that they of course do not mean.

I’m so sick of all these companies

I don’t know how to drive at all. Thought of staying put in my country JUST for this but it’s kind of ridiculous honestly (very expensive with long wait times). I want to take the language course in china for 1-2 years, this is also enough time to learn how to drive, so why not? But I would like to confirm if this is possible with anyone who has gone before me🥹

It could be oats + bananas + avocadoes or oats + bananas and oats + bananas etc. but my kitchen is really small and I only have a pan, steamer, air fryer and microwave. Preferably breakfast or dessert. It’s usually cakes, brownies, and pancakes that I find online but they all require eggs. I need something simple and inexpensive, easy to make and can be meal prepped.

Right now I make overnight oats but I don’t really like the taste. It’s bland besides the sweetness from the fruit or syrup. It’s basically oats, soy milk, chia seeds, and two fruit toppings (bananas, blueberries, other berries) + maple syrup.

Deep in my heart, I actually and truly believe I will achieve my goals and desires. But my everyday beliefs are completely different. Yet they are both honest. I don’t know how it works.

I have a very clear picture of my desires. Thinking about it warms my heart and fills it with purest joy. But my current life is nowhere like that. And everyday I am reminded of that. I see it in the mirror, I see it in my surroundings. I just don’t understand how am I supposed to switch it all off and only focus on my mind and not my reality? I’m a living person, I can’t live in my own head.

Let me put it this way. Imagine your desired self is someone with smooth skin, yet you’re in a body that produces both big and small bumps all over due to a genetic mutation, so you can’t be medicated. How are you supposed to live as if you have smooth skin, when just being ALIVE constantly reminds you that you DON’T? People will stare at you, point at you, remind you of it, when you subconsciously touch yourself, maybe to adjust your clothes, you feel your bumps. So how much can one person “fake it till they make it” when they have to live in their actual, current state of existence?

The advice I always read is to embody who you want to be. You don’t want smooth skin because you like smooth skin, you like it because you like how it makes you feel. So that’s what you want to chase. Not the smooth skin itself. But reality is constantly pounding at you, so it’s just apathetic and inhumane to tell someone to not be a human by not reacting/feeling, and then telling them the reason why they fail to manifest is due to their own shortcomings, when these shortcomings are so unfairly apparent in their life.

Especially for global users. It has been a very very long time since a phone made me excited. I want it so bad. But it would still be pointless if I can’t use it normally. I don’t really use a lot of apps though. The most mainstream ones, banking apps, stuff like that. I read a comment somewhere here about foreign apps that require biometric login do not work (manual passcode instead)? So only Chinese apps would work I assume. And HuaweiPay is pretty redundant. Oh… and not being able to use rednote for some reason.

I’ve been on this for years passively (I’d probably go insane with overwhelm if I did it obsessively). I’m probably 60% good. All my bedding is natural. My wardrobe is over 80% natural and all casuals, socks, and underwear are fully natural. My kitchen is largely plastic free (but I use a non stick rice cooker and air fryer, does this pose a problem.. I never let any food get in contact with my air fryer though).

I feel very irked because there are probably so many things I would never know releases microplastics. And maybe items I don’t understand HOW it could even release microplastics. For instance, the large majority of my skincare are in plastic bottles — does that release microplastics? My toilet paper is apparently wood pulp, but I wouldn’t be surprised if it had microplastics 🙄

The biggest issue for me would be grocery shopping. Everything is wrapped in plastic, what else am I supposed to do? ALL of it. I still don’t get how cold food could release microplastics into my body but I feel frustrated nonetheless.

I used to buy bamboo toothbrushes thinking I did something but then I found out the bristles are nylon. I don’t have alternatives.

Even crocs are made of plastic and releases microplastics. Most likely not into our bodies but into our environment.

I wouldn’t be surprised if my laundry detergent releases microplastics. And then it goes into a treatment plant. And then it goes back into our drinking water or even our rain. So it doesn’t matter if it’s ingested or not because it WILL eventually be.

I don’t know how else I can improve. On the surface I think I do a pretty good job but that’s because I’m conscious. Yet there are probably so many other daily items under my radar.

I’ve never owned a Huawei before but I REALLY want that phone. However, reviews on rednote don’t seem great. The biggest problem people face is that the screen leaks or malfunctions out of the blue and becomes completely unusable. And apparently huawei’s customer service sucks and so they can’t get it replaced or compensated, as they’ll claim “human damage”. So I’m very hesitant now, since it’s so expensive.