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Well I am 25F ...will be 26 soon

For the last 2 years .... actually more but recently I started experiencing many things and sometimes it's just overwhelming or makes me extremely curious.

I have been in certain relationships over the years and recently i understood patterns .but last year I was involved with someone who made me question my reality...he wasn't the good kind of person I have been involved with , but there is a certain karmic bond between us . Toxic yet entertaining. It made me question patterns , break through it in some cases and a whole lot of more experience. It made me open up to the universe. There were times i already knew where I am leading to in life. There were a lot of losses and breakdowns but that pushed me to look up as I knew this was working, I know where I have to reach .

I realised we all have peace but not everyone has the capacity to handle peace as our brain is so addicted to simulation that we need constant drama or we feel bored .

There is nothing as good or bad in reality and much more .

But another thing I realised ... I don't feel attracted to anyone , I need someone who is mirroring me , who who is mirroring me but even better at that stage .

During meditation I feel I see some colour flickering as if it's telling me some things which i recognise.

I am able to get certain visions back which I used to see when I was kid .

I am pretty blunt abt things , I don't like to talk to ppl much . Like earlier I used to try to be nice ... Rn i tell everyone everything very bluntly.

I don't feel I have the fear of anything....like not even a single thing , not even death .

I just feel like sitting alone and not sharing my energy with anyone unless and until I feel like i want to give .

Also recently i saw a dragon shadow. This happened yesterday. Like for a flicker of seconds .

Also ...when I sit down , I can see myself or my projection all around me , idk how to describe it .

There are times I can sense some colour , as if that colour is communicating with me , like near my ajana chakra , and I can understand the communication as well ....not like I do not

There are a lot of things going on . I don't feel crazy but overwhelmed but I also feel . This is nothing compared to the things i am going through but I feel I am in love with the chaos , I just don't have the fear

Well I am 25F ...will be 26 soon

For the last 2 years .... actually more but recently I started experiencing many things and sometimes it's just overwhelming or makes me extremely curious.

I have been in certain relationships over the years and recently i understood patterns .but last year I was involved with someone who made me question my reality...he wasn't the good kind of person I have been involved with , but there is a certain karmic bond between us . Toxic yet entertaining. It made me question patterns , break through it in some cases and a whole lot of more experience. It made me open up to the universe. There were times i already knew where I am leading to in life. There were a lot of losses and breakdowns but that pushed me to look up as I knew this was working, I know where I have to reach .

I realised we all have peace but not everyone has the capacity to handle peace as our brain is so addicted to simulation that we need constant drama or we feel bored .

There is nothing as good or bad in reality and much more .

But another thing I realised ... I don't feel attracted to anyone , I need someone who is mirroring me , who who is mirroring me but even better at that stage .

During meditation I feel I see some colour flickering as if it's telling me some things which i recognise.

I am able to get certain visions back which I used to see when I was kid .

I am pretty blunt abt things , I don't like to talk to ppl much . Like earlier I used to try to be nice ... Rn i tell everyone everything very bluntly.

I don't feel I have the fear of anything....like not even a single thing , not even death .

I just feel like sitting alone and not sharing my energy with anyone unless and until I feel like i want to give .

Also recently i saw a dragon shadow. This happened yesterday. Like for a flicker of seconds .

Also ...when I sit down , I can see myself or my projection all around me , idk how to describe it .

There are times I can sense some colour , as if that colour is communicating with me , like near my ajana chakra , and I can understand the communication as well ....not like I do not

There are a lot of things going on . I don't feel crazy but overwhelmed but I also feel . This is nothing compared to the things i am going through but I feel I am in love with the chaos , I just don't have the fear

Well I am 25F ...will be 26 soon

For the last 2 years .... actually more but recently I started experiencing many things and sometimes it's just overwhelming or makes me extremely curious.

I have been in certain relationships over the years and recently i understood patterns .but last year I was involved with someone who made me question my reality...he wasn't the good kind of person I have been involved with , but there is a certain karmic bond between us . Toxic yet entertaining. It made me question patterns , break through it in some cases and a whole lot of more experience. It made me open up to the universe. There were times i already knew where I am leading to in life. There were a lot of losses and breakdowns but that pushed me to look up as I knew this was working, I know where I have to reach .

I realised we all have peace but not everyone has the capacity to handle peace as our brain is so addicted to simulation that we need constant drama or we feel bored .

There is nothing as good or bad in reality and much more .

But another thing I realised ... I don't feel attracted to anyone , I need someone who is mirroring me , who who is mirroring me but even better at that stage .

During meditation I feel I see some colour flickering as if it's telling me some things which i recognise.

I am able to get certain visions back which I used to see when I was kid .

I am pretty blunt abt things , I don't like to talk to ppl much . Like earlier I used to try to be nice ... Rn i tell everyone everything very bluntly.

I don't feel I have the fear of anything....like not even a single thing , not even death .

I just feel like sitting alone and not sharing my energy with anyone unless and until I feel like i want to give .

Also recently i saw a dragon shadow. This happened yesterday. Like for a flicker of seconds .

Also ...when I sit down , I can see myself or my projection all around me , idk how to describe it .

There are times I can sense some colour , as if that colour is communicating with me , like near my ajana chakra , and I can understand the communication as well ....not like I do not

There are a lot of things going on . I don't feel crazy but overwhelmed but I also feel . This is nothing compared to the things i am going through but I feel I am in love with the chaos , I just don't have the fear

Well I am 25F ...will be 26 soon

For the last 2 years .... actually more but recently I started experiencing many things and sometimes it's just overwhelming or makes me extremely curious.

I have been in certain relationships over the years and recently i understood patterns .but last year I was involved with someone who made me question my reality...he wasn't the good kind of person I have been involved with , but there is a certain karmic bond between us . Toxic yet entertaining. It made me question patterns , break through it in some cases and a whole lot of more experience. It made me open up to the universe. There were times i already knew where I am leading to in life. There were a lot of losses and breakdowns but that pushed me to look up as I knew this was working, I know where I have to reach .

I realised we all have peace but not everyone has the capacity to handle peace as our brain is so addicted to simulation that we need constant drama or we feel bored .

There is nothing as good or bad in reality and much more .

But another thing I realised ... I don't feel attracted to anyone , I need someone who is mirroring me , who who is mirroring me but even better at that stage .

During meditation I feel I see some colour flickering as if it's telling me some things which i recognise.

I am able to get certain visions back which I used to see when I was kid .

I am pretty blunt abt things , I don't like to talk to ppl much . Like earlier I used to try to be nice ... Rn i tell everyone everything very bluntly.

I don't feel I have the fear of anything....like not even a single thing , not even death .

I just feel like sitting alone and not sharing my energy with anyone unless and until I feel like i want to give .

Also recently i saw a dragon shadow. This happened yesterday. Like for a flicker of seconds .

Also ...when I sit down , I can see myself or my projection all around me , idk how to describe it .

There are times I can sense some colour , as if that colour is communicating with me , like near my ajana chakra , and I can understand the communication as well ....not like I do not

There are a lot of things going on . I don't feel crazy but overwhelmed but I also feel . This is nothing compared to the things i am going through but I feel I am in love with the chaos , I just don't have the fear

Let's do a meet up soon ... it's been a long time we didn't have a meet up ...koi ek shaam pakdo and milo

Hi I am 25F ...will be 26 in 5.5 months

I don't like going out on dates etc .

I feel somehow stable , not stable enough but still able to provide and do stuff in my life not able to have that spark ( someone I compare everyone with my ex and reject them ) ....also the fact I feel I can do things on my own , I feel independent and not codependent on ppl. I feel it's unnecessary to go out on dates because I would reject them anyhow

I feel i need a person who is like me and my ex was like that .... but he had certain values which didn't suit me . Ig I am not over his image and being independent I feel what's the use of having a partner ?

I mean I am completely comfortable with the idea of d*ing alone no copulation ....not afraid of people gossiping

Is that okay ?

I have been feeling for a long period of time

I love to get to know ppl as friends , but when they wanna take me out , after a sec or two my mind starts racing with these questions...why should I reject him, try to find flaws to reject him....not exactly flaws but qualities which won't match mine .

https://chat.whatsapp.com/IRYxURJyu4j2T6VJdjfEO8

https://chat.whatsapp.com/IRYxURJyu4j2T6VJdjfEO8

So let’s meet on a weekend (not this one though...I have an exam)

Maybe at a park or a café during the evening, and we can make a zine together. I’ll bring the sheets, colour pencils, and pens for everyone hehe.... It’ll be a really fun activity by being creative🤗🤗 do lmk