u/vasur10

Andhariki namaskaram, oka long story , brief ga chepthuna ( sorry if it's clumsy)

personally nenu yepudu love or relationship lo lenu..cheyanu ani kadhu but, commitment ki set iye ammai edhuru avaledhu inthavarku..

Last year, oka person parichayam iyaru (twitter lo)she is tamil, instantly, i felt this person was very genuine and very sweet.

Kani, I'm aware of the practical reality, she lives in Japan, nenu country vadhili vele thought leni vadini..and she also is a type of person who would be quick to withdraw when things are emotional..

So sometimes if she feels she is a disturbance for my personal life she will withdraw, othertimes, vachi sweet ga matladidhi..iddarama manchi bestfriends anukunevalam..infact struggles share cheskunedhi..and vinedhi bagane.

Okaroju, thanu online ki raledhu, nenu oka 2 times message everything fine? Emina problem ah ani..2 days tharvatha vachindhi..nenu adiga emindhi ani ( apatiki maku ah emotional connection vachindhi so I was worried). Thanu simple answers ichindhi weekend lazyness , shopping office gatherings etc ,. Nenu dhaniki atleast adhi text cheyochu kadha I was worried about you ani ananu.. dhaniki thanu, ithe oka apedham, I don't want you to be worried.. you should be away from me ani block chesindhi.

I was so confused..never expected that.

Later few months tharvatha she unblocked thinking I moved one..I noticed the unblock, malla text chesa why unblock how are you ani. She said i thought you will move on.

Nenu avoid cheyakunda thanatho clam ga matlada ani guilt feel indhi,, inkepudu ala cheyanu ani sorry cheppindhi.

Nenu kuda lite le , things happen, you are still my friend ananu..

Ala oka 2 months baunam.. manchi friends iyam..idarki clarity undhi,not for relationship ani , ala manchi friends ipoyam..

Songs share cheskunam, movies, politics gossips.. struggles etc.

One day nenoka telugu song share chesa, vini yela undho chepu ananu. Thanu ah roju evening vinta anindhi. Nenu ok le ani did my work.

Ah evening thanu marchipoindhi, nenu em analedhu good night chepkunam.

Next roju matalo gurthuvachindhi thanaki.. evening vintanu anindi.. nenu no pressure,niku time unapude vinu ananu, thanu no definitely evening anindhi.

Ah Evng, malla marchipoindhi 😅, neninka ah night thanani pressure chesthunanemo ani song link delete chesa.

Next roju morning thanu notice chesindhi, why did you delete anindhi.

Nenu chepa, i didn't want to pressure you, you might have work , or chores etc..someothertime we will talk about that ananu.

Inka thanu ah roju nunchi distamce chesindhi nannu.

Nenu apologize chesa, thana attention ni nenu question cheyaledu. But thanu endhuku hurt indho ardham kaledhu.

Sorry cheppi , ni attention nenepudu question cheyaledhu ananu.

Thanu ok let's get back to what we were anindhi..

Kani, alane distant ga matkaduthundhi..koncham adigi chusa inkemina problem undha natho? Kopama ? Etc.

Thanu simple nothing ani replies ichindhi.

Naku ardhamindhi I lost it ani..

So next morning oka text petta , i respect the distance between us, you are same as ever for me, you are always welcome ani cheppa.

Ah roju evening she said something " I'm going to quit social media, i May or May not return" .

Nenu " is it because of me? , if you want i will stay away but please don't quit because of me " ananu.

She simply said "nothing, you are my true friend, I just need to test myself, I need to improve myself, I need to be strong".

Inka nenem cheyalenu anipinchindhi.

Take care, you are my good friend too. I will miss you ani cheppa.

Tharvatha koncham alochisthe, she is an "avoidant" ani ardhamindhi..and I'm an "anxious" attached person.

Ma iddari madhya ee "anxious attachment" cycle nadichindhi.

Ee avoidants tho deal cheyatam antha easy kadhu not because they are bad, but clarity undadhu.

Learned an experience of the attachment style.

Mi thoughts yenti ee visyam pi?

Thankyou for reading.