u/virtuallyok

If you’re spiritual how is your social life? When I get into spirituality I stay distant and do not want to talk to anyone I try to protect my peace as much as possible but I do know that I’m a human and I need social interaction but it feels hard when everyone around you wouldn’t understand you or get you like being around people who share your old habits thinking and patterns I feel disconnected from society because In my mind society isn’t on the same awareness and it’s overwhelming i know it isn’t healthy but that’s the only way I can protect my peace and stay away from things do not serve me

Does having a vision of a black snake mean anything? I’ve never really experienced something like this before, at least not that I can remember. But recently, I had this vivid image in my mind of myself walking through the woods with my head held high. Almost stepping on a black snake that had its head raised, and I remember seeing myself back up real fast. At the time, I thought it was just something I imagined. But the next day, I went for a walk at this lake that had a 7 mile trail which is what I do often when I have something on my mind.

And the exact same thing happened i don’t feel like it’s a coincidence seeing this snake because what I visioned was exactly the same way I encountered this black snake what does a vision of a black snake mean? My life has been in shambles these past couple of years and it’s been getting worse and worse like it’s I want to give up could it be a warning or a sign

I was molested by my brother’s friend when I was 4 years old and it happened more than once. When my brother and him come home from football practice.. I stayed with them until my dad got off work so we would play the game and he would take me in the closet

When my brother was in shower but after while I started making sexual remarks to him in-front of my brother and he told my parents so I got upset and told my mom what he had been doing to me. I didn’t see him anymore after that when I was a child I told my mom once and that was it she would ask me over and over again but I could not explain to her what exactly what we were doing. When I turned about 7 I remember touching myself thinking about him I believe this is what turned me gay

Ive had sexual experiences with the opposite sex but I experienced more sexual connection with a man I honestly hate what he done to me it shapes my whole life experiences now even through nasty kinks the need to feel humiliated and then disliking the humiliation after that I seen him like 4 years later at a football game and he was staring at me I thought he was going to touch me again I got older and just started having random hookups living through my trauma I want someone to blame but maybe not blaming someone is the way I can fully heal from it. I don’t want to be attracted to men anymore it makes me feel like he won at sexually turning me different i had a friend i would have sex with and he told me he was molested by him too I confronted him as I got older oddly enough from a random add on Snapchat he blocked me after our lil conversation but he was about 12 when it happend I want to move on from it but leaving my sexuality behind feels like it would be the key to this because the memory of him comes back every time I feel like I’m humiliating myself liking Men why? Has anyone ever been through this