u/void_void_void_

I stare at the place your words used to land,
A quiet screen I don’t understand.
No warning, no reason, just open space,
Where your voice once lived, where I still trace.

My thoughts don’t walk—they run and break,
Turning small delays into something they make.
A story of distance, a fear dressed as truth,
A slow unraveling I can’t soothe.

Do I wait here still, where you might return,
Or step into the lesson I don’t want to learn?
That not every silence is meant to be filled,
And not every ending is something killed.

But silence is heavy, it bends like stone,
It turns “maybe later” into “I’m alone.”
And I reach for meaning in every gap,
Like love could be solved by a reply on tap.

So speak, or don’t—just end this in some way,
Because waiting in echoes is harder each day.

you.

of all people knew I was hiding behind masks.

you’re the only person to see right through my “personas”, lies, walls, manipulations. Whatever you want to call it.

yet, instead you want to always villainize me… you know the “real” me…

I know we have our differences, but I need you as a friend.

This is me, putting down my walls.

I miss you.

I’d rather go through a thousand hard days with you, arguing, learning, healing, and trying again, than spend a lifetime with someone I’ll never truly love the way I love you.

You are my greatest risk and my safest place at the same time. No matter how hard it gets.

Lovey,

I think you’re reading the wrong letters my guy…. I would never say anything bad about you.. ☹️

But please keep assuming or you can ask me.

bye.

fuccckkkkkk, I just love you so much. What do you not understand?

I LOVE YOU. I don’t hate you, I’m not mad at you.. I don’t want to be your little friend. I want you as my forever.

I LOVE YOU.

today, someone looked at me and said, “are you okay.. you look frazzled.”

me being me: “yes, I’m fine.”

they studied my face and emotions a little longer before they said… “you know, this too shall pass. Hang in there.”

just another Monday, ya know?