u/wellbalancedlibra

Hello. My daughter came to us the other day to tell us that last December she signed up to be a surrogate. She has been matched, and signed a contract on Monday. All of this is quite a shock, as you can imagine. I worry about her safety and what were to happen to my grandchildren if the worst should happen. Birth is risky. It frightens me.

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I want to not be negative about it. I want to be as supportive as I can. Can anyone give me guidance on what I can do to support her through this? What's a mom's role? It's going to be weird not touching her belly and talking to the baby as it grows. Do I do that stuff anyway? If I were the expectant parent, I would want my baby to have as much love before birth as they would give it after. Anything you wanted from your mom through the journey?

Saw my psychiatrist the other day and we were talking about my recent SI. She asked if I have anything planned for after my death. I should tell you I'm 58. I have a booklet of instructions for my funeral, and it also includes all the things my family should know if I die. I think it's smart pre planning. She says it's not normal. I figure I'm going to die one day, of old age hopefully. What is so unusual about a plan?

Been playing with my coins and silver today. Went through and organized receipts going back to 2019. I shamefully admit I had FOMO, and bought ounces too high on occasion. Who hasn't? Anyway, my average cost per ounce including all taxes and shipping costs is $38.37. Not bad, I thought.

I just need to throw this out there and get some help processing. I live in the U.S., 58 years old. I just got my first recertification form for SSDI after receiving benefits for 2 years. I was so worried about filling out the form incorrectly that it took me 2 days. I have been consistently treated by my diagnosing psychiatrist since my last bad breakdown at 50. The last couple sessions, she's mentioned that my anxiety is causing problems, not my bipolar. I have imposter syndrome from a lifetime of hiding my illness and thinking I didn't deserve treatment. My worry is what if she thinks I'm not bipolar anymore?

One of the questions on the form was if you had discussed going back to work with your doctor. We never talk about it at all. Is that bad? I depend on my SSDI to pay my medical bills and for my medications. I can't stop worrying that I'm going to lose it. Has anyone been through this recertification process? Was it scary? Does it take a long time? Is it similar to the application process? Were you worried you would lose your benefits? Any comment or advice is welcome. I just need to be talked down from my sleepless worrying.