u/whirls_living_life

Figured I'd just walk through what a real session of Tycoon Flow looks like instead of describing features in the abstract.

You open the game with $5,000 cash and a low-tier job paying a small daily salary. First decision is where to put the money. The bank screen pulls from 120+ procedurally generated fictional banks - different account types, different interest rates, different minimum deposit rules. You're not just clicking "deposit." You're deciding if a money market at 3.1% beats a CD at 4.4% with a lockup period given where you are in the game.

Meanwhile your daily salary is trickling in. You want a better job. To unlock the next tier you take a two-minute college test - quiz questions built around mechanics you've been using. Pass it and your daily income jumps. Fail and you retry.

Once you have more cash moving you open the investment screen. Stocks with tickers and sectors. Contract deals you can send to other companies or receive and review. Your portfolio starts to have actual shape.

The whole thing runs in a browser. No download, no account. It's early and I'm one person building it, so it's not perfect. But the core loop is there and it works. If you're into incremental games with real system depth, could you try it and give me feedback?

Specifically feedback like what needs changing, what needs to be added, if the progression feels to fast, if I should add in like the legal system for businesses and companies, and especially one thing I've been thinking about: online play.

I'm hoping to one day make it so plAyers can interact with other players easier and a lot more, that kind of thing. And if course I'm hoping to make it better. Right now it's just a beta version. Link in comments.

Edit: I'm so stupid, the names tycoon flow, and now the right link is there. The other was an earlier version

I've been building a photo editing app, starting with the basic things, editing the lighting saturation angles, shadows, blur, that stuff.

I'm also adding the ability to blur outburst certain pieces of the photo, and not others, as well as focus points and maybe even adding shadow control and a brush to erase things co plenty and auto fill in the background.

What do you think would make this better? Is there anything you would specifically want in it? It's all free, by the way, no premium features or free trial of anything.

I'm building a startup, and my first product is a full disk encryption program, made to work just as well as others, but easier to use, potentially more hacker proof, and blocks access to anyone.

I have a few connections in the tech industry, and I have two local companies on wait. But I don't know how to sell to other companies. Do I ask the two companies to spread the word or?

First I'm going to have it professionally reviewed bye a professional analyst. I'm still beta testing for now, since it's not the kind of thing about her person can test, cause it could corrupt their device.

But even then, I don't know what to charge. I'm hoping to charge 3 dollars, and eventually sell to casual users, but first I need to make a version that works for every OS, since it's no use on just one.

I just need advice on what I should charge, what would make a casual user want to pay for it, and what price for causal users versus companies. And of course how I can spread the word. I was planing on having one of the companies, which is a consulting firm, post a review, so should I still do that?

I really like this girl. Me and her broke up less than a week ago, and it was tough on me, and probably on her too. But I still love her, and I'm not ready to give up. Not yet.

She was funny, really cute, smart, bold, kind, caring, kinda crazy, in the good way, and had this thing about talking to ghost I loved. And she was Greek and I've always been obsessed with the Greeks.

Me and her fought. A lot. Be we always worked it out. We thought this fight was bigger, then realized it was deeper, but notifier than any other fight. I told he right still love her, and ill contact her some time soon.

I'm just kinda failing. I know I need to step it up, cause she's worth it. But I'm not emotionally intelligent. Well,I am, but not in a emotional way. Only in practical studies. I'm also not emotional, can't speak my mind, or tell her how amazing she is, and I'm just not good enough for her.

But she choose me. She admitted she liked me too. That she wanted to date me. She choose me, and I've spent every day since in awe that dreams really do come true. To be fair, we last 1 week and 2 days, but oh well.

We're still figuring things out, and I know she's willing to hormone last chance. And honestly? She makes me a better person. One day, I was at an ice cream truck, and their was some little kids their, so I bought them all their ice creams for them.

And I don't need a thank you or anything after that. I did it because she had shown me what intents to be kind that day, and I wanted to spread the kindness. She just means so much to me. So it's worth it for her.

So I'm looking for anything I should do, books and articles I should read, and just little reminders I can give myself to get better. Anything helps, please. Already set one of my passwords to I'm sorry, hoping if I toy either enough times, ill feel it.

I'm emotionless. Not technically, but I chat comprehend my emotions. I could think deeply about how I'm feeling in a moment and not have any clue how I'm feeling at all. But I can feel the emotions in my head, the ones my mind know sit should feel and makes me feel them.

Keep just wanna be better. I wanna be able to tell her I love her. I wanna stop being so afraid of being vulnerable, or if rejection, of being so unsure of myself I don't even correct things I catcher from fear of being hated.

So if you have any advice, tips, anything of any kind that could possible help me, even if it seems insignificant, please share it. I really wanna be good enough for her. And for me.

I first saw her at school. Just a regular wall across campus between classless, when I happened to look up and see her. And honesty, my first thought was that she was cuter than any girl had the right to look. Yeah, I fell hard. After that I kept staring at her walking across campus, learned her schedule, becoming a total stalker.

Then I discovered she had the same PE class as me. We were all playing slap shot, and I loved seeing her laugh, but couldn't manage to say anything to her, even a single hello. Then one day she held the Door open for me to the library, and my heart threw itself out the door.

After that I would discreetly walked near her, as close as I could get without her noticing, never making contact, and when we did, my heart literally pounded so hard I thought she heard it. I even discovered we hung out in the same friend circle, and learned her name was evelyn. But in ever asked my friends about her.

After the school year ended, I went to a summer club program for teens, and couldn't believe that she was their too. After that I finally managed to make a joke to her, and I started gently helping her figure things out, which she hated. Then we became friends. Then it went wrong.

She had just been making a painting, and it looked like an all black painting to me. So I pretended to touch it as a joke, and she freaked out and said she had been making it for me, but now I ruined it. She wouldn't talk to me for 3 days. Like, she literally had someone else talk for her. She was good at it.

I asked her what would make her feel better. She told her friend to tell me doctor pepper. So I bought it for her. When I showed up the next day, she saw it and immediately said she contravene, cause either bought her a huge bottle and she was expecting a little can. I also have her an apology note, and them tried to take it back before she read it, but she read it anyway and said she was keeping it.

Then another few weeks later she popped me on the head, and I instinctively, since I didn't know it was her, popped her back, and she wouldn't talk to me for 2 days. But after that we grew closer. We lived in the grass, talking, telling jokes, and just having fun. Then came the day we confessed.

We had just been in the art room, and we where outside eating lunch, when she asked me who I had a crush on. We played a game where she got 3 questions and so did I, to identify the others, smiling and joking through it, till she guessed my crush was her, and I said yes. Then she refused to tell me hers, even though I already knew. for the next few days we functioned normally, and them I finally asked her to date me.

First she said yes. Then she said no. Then she said purple. I asked what purple meant, and didn't get an answer. Then we had a fight. It 12's just a. Stupid misunderstanding, but I slipped up and said I wasn't gonna dat ether, which made her cry. Then suddenly I was the bad guy. but after another week we forgave each other and started dating. At first it was fun. But after a day or two, she noticed I was clueless. She had me get her a burger with mustard. I drew a smiley face with it instead if a heart. Then she asked me to say I love you. And that's where I broke.

For context, I've never ever said those words in that genuine way before. I'm just shy. I laugh through pain. I joke with bothered about me. I don't like eye contact,or sitting to close to people. I just never got comfortable with it, since I was always alone, which was how I liked it.

So of course I hesitated, for so long she turned away and got upset again. Damn, she gets upset a lot apparently. Then she asked me to call her beautiful. And I called her cute. Cause in my mind, that was better. I was so, so stupid. After that she cried. She wouldn't talk to me for days. We grew distant. But we eventually moved past it.

Then one day, I was being annoying, so she slapped me across the face. I k ow now that it was a joke, and she didn't know she hit me hard. I didn't know that then though. I walked away. I broke up with her via her friend telling her for me. Then I went on a walk for an hour, before finally calming down and trying to apologise and get back together. She said no.

She wouldn't talk to me for days, and when she finally did it was on the last day of summer. She told me I had hurt her to bad. That I had put a business. p on her head the time I pope ether on accident. That she just diner feel like it was working for her. And I understood that. I told her that I was sorry, and that I didn't mean to hurt her, and that I'd contact her over the school year, and next summer I'd do better, though I don't think she wants to date again. But ill try anyways. Anything for her.

Me and her broke up. I don't wanna get into it. But it wasn't working, I ended things, I regretted it, I found out why she was mad, and just didn't fix it in time. Let me know if I should post a full story. It's an epic romance, and I swear it's true.

But now that it's over I don't feel sad. I don't feel hopefully either. I feel like it hasn't effected me,which is strange cause I really love her. She's funny, kind,smart,beautiful, emotionally intelligent, slightly crazy and hyperactive, and honestly the best.

But I don't know how to contact her, cause we never exchanged numbers, we don't go to the same school or live near each other. But i di have a friend who goes to her school, so I can reach her. Be t should I?

I have a not explained out. It explains why I'm not open with her, why I ended things, why I wnat her back, why I like her, my past experiences, why I overreacted, and how much I'm trying to change.

She's honestly the most incredible person I've ever met, and I'm so lucky I got to date her.she was perfect, disaster good enough for her, and fiber treat her how I should have, and that's on me. But I'm not ready to give up.

I don't care what it takes, I'm prepared to fight a losing battle and win. The thing us that I spend hours studying psychology, how to trigger certain reactions, how to manipulate the mind to treat dopamine as love, and react in the most caring way.

But that's not me, and I don't wanna date her if she's not really dating me. I Justin know what to do. Any advice?

I'm bad at face to face. Really bad. I can't tell what people are feeling,I can't figure out how to comfort them,and even when I know what to say, I chat say it.

But online I can just be me. I say all my real thoughts. I don't hold back. I don't edit out the parts me people don't like. Cause eh finally found the place where I don't feel like in not enough, or way to much.

My mind is strong. That's not the problem. I have good focus. I have a 137 Ian, but low emotional intelligence. My friend told me their grandma had cancer. I had no idea what to say, and said I'm sorry.

My entire, to other people I've always been either the kid who's quite, and comfortable, motive been the loud, rambunctious, annoying teen who's always getting in trouble.

But none of them really know me. They don't see me crying in my bed at night. They don't see me reading on how to be better. They don't see me TRYING to be better for everyone around me, failing so hard I fall down and don't get back up.

Not my parents. not my siblings. No one. I've had friends. But never for long. I've had relationships. never for long. When your quite, you sometimes tell yourself that everything is temporary. At least i did. And I was right. At least for my life

My girlfriend broke up with me. She was incredible. She wasn't toxic. She wasn't in it for anything, she just liked me for me, the funny, humorous guy who always made her laugh and bought her favorite soda.

But when we started dating, I got to content. I thought maybe I could finally relax. So I started being me. I became that kid who didn't k ow what to do, the one who went quite after this mistakes. And it ended with me getting slapped across the face and called: "too much".

I broke up with her about an hour later. She doesn't know why. And I'm not planing on telling her. Cause I'm just so sick of caring. I'm sick and tired of putting my best foot forward, of being welcomed with love, then thrown out when I try and be me.

I've always heard that their must be something wrong with me. From friends. From siblings. Even from my parents. But I always laughed threw it, deflected the attention, kept quite. Never let them know how much it hurt.

When I was beaten up at school, I laughed it off. When my siblings did something I took the punishment for them. And they didn't care, cause after the first few times it became my role.

So I'm tired. I'm sick and tired of living like this. I'm tired of being treated like this, and I'm tired of all ways being the one that's "too much" or "not enough".

I tried. I tried for that girl. I love her. I loved her more then any girl I've ever loved. And it was the longest fucking relationship I've ever kept. 1 2/3 weeks. I thought maybe life would get better. But life's a bitch.

I'm im sick and I'm tired of it. I'm sick of feeling like I'm not good enough for them. I'm tired of trying to be. I want to. I want to be that guy. But it never ends well for me. I just can't do it anymore.

But I'm not gonna kill myself either. I unfortunately know the value of a human life, and I'm not dumb enough to throw my life away. I'm just tired. I'm tired. I don't know what I'm gonna do, but I decided in never falling in love again. Because she was fucking perfect, and I went and screwed it up.

If my life has shown me one thing, it's what kind Of love guy like me gets. And if that's what love is like, then it is so not worth it. I'm just done. I'm done caring, im done trying, I'm just done laughing through the pain. I just don't m so what to do.

I'm 14m, by the way, if anyone cares (no one does).

I'm bad at face to face. Really bad. I can't tell what people are feeling,I can't figure out how to comfort them,and even when I know what to say, I chat say it.

But online I can just be me. I say all my real thoughts. I don't hold back. I don't edit out the parts me people don't like. Cause eh finally found the place where I don't feel like in not enough, or way to much.

My mind is strong. That's not the problem. I have good focus. I have a 137 Ian, but low emotional intelligence. My friend told me their grandma had cancer. I had no idea what to say, and said I'm sorry.

My entire, to other people I've always been either the kid who's quite, and comfortable, motive been the loud, rambunctious, annoying teen who's always getting in trouble.

But none of them really k ow me. They don't see me crying in my bed at night. They don't see me reading on how to be better. They dent see me trying to be better, failing so hard I fall down and don't get back up.

Not my parents. not my siblings. No one. I've had friends. But never for long. I've had relationships. never for long. When your quite and smart, you sometimes realize that everything is temporary. At least did.

My girlfriend broke up with me. She was incredible. She wasn't toxic. She wasn't in it for anything, she just liked me for me, the funny, humorous guy who always made her laugh and bought her favorite soda. Executives t that assent full me. Not really.

But when we started dating, I got to content. I thought maybe I could finally relax. So I started being me. I became that kid who didn't k ow what to do, the one who went quite after this mistakes. And it ended with me getting slapped across the face and called: "too much".

I broke up with her about an hour later. She doesn't know why. And I'm not planing on telling her. Cause I'm just so sick of caring. I'm sick and tired of putting my best foot forward, if being welcomed with love, then thrown out when I try and be me.

I've always heard that their must be something wrong with me. From friends. From siblings. Even from my parents. But I always laughed threw it, deflected the attention, kept quite.

When I was beaten up at school, I laughed it off. When my siblings did something I took the spanked for them. And they didn't care, cause after the first few time sit be name my role.

So I'm tired. I'm sick and tired of living like this. I'm tired of being treated lick this, an dim tired of all ways being the one that's "too much" or "not enough".

I tried. I tried for that girl. I love her. I loved her more then any girl I've ever loved. And it was the longest fucking relationship I've ever kept. 1 2/3 weeks.

I'm im sick an dim tire dog it. I'm sick of feeling like I'm not good enough for them. I'm tired of trying to be. I want to. I want to be that guy. But it never ends well for me. I just can't do it anymore.

But I'm not gonna kill myself either. I unfortunately j ow the value of a human life, and I'm to much of a scarlet cat to doit. In just tired. I'm tired. I don't know what I'm gonna do, but I decided in never falling in love again.

If my life has shown me one thing, t-shirts what kind Oliver guy like me gets. And if that's what love is like, then it is so not worth it. I'm just done. I'm done caring, im done trying, I'm just done.

I'm 14m, by the way, if anyone cares (no one does).

I'm bad at face to face. Really bad. I can't tell what people are feeling,I can't figure out how to comfort them,and even when I know what to say, I chat say it.

But online I can just be me. I say all my real thoughts. I don't hold back. I don't edit out the parts me people don't like. Cause eh finally found the place where I don't feel like in not enough, or way to much.

My mind is strong. That's not the problem. I have good focus. I have a 137 Ian, but low emotional intelligence. My friend told me their grandma had cancer. I had no idea what to say, and said I'm sorry.

My entire, to other people I've always been either the kid who's quite, and comfortable, motive been the loud, rambunctious, annoying teen who's always getting in trouble.

But none of them really k ow me. They don't see me crying in my bed at night. They don't see me reading on how to be better. They dent see me trying to be better, failing so hard I fall down and don't get back up.

Not my parents.not my siblings. No one. I've had friends. But never for long. I've had relationships.never for long. When your quite and smart, you sometimes realize that everything is temporary. At least did.

My girlfriend broke up with me. She was incredible. She wasn't toxic. She wasn't in it for anything, she just like dme for me, the funny, humorous guy who always made her laugh and bought her favorite soda.

But when we started dating, I got to content. I thought maybe I could finally relax. So I started being me. I became that kid who didn't k ow what to do, the one who went quite after this mistakes. And it ended with me getting slapped across the face and called: "too much".

I broke up with her about an hour later.She doesn't know why. And I'm not planing on telling her. Cause I'm just so sick of caring. I'm sick and tired of putting my best foot forward, if being welcomed with love, then thrown out when I try and be me.

I've always heard that their must be something wrong with me. From friends. From siblings. Even from my parents. But I always laughed threw it, deflected the attention, kept quite.

When I was beaten up at school, I laughed it off. When my siblings did something I took the spanked for them. And they didn't care, cause after the first few time sit be name my role.

So I'm tired. I'm sick and tired of living like this. I'm tired of being treated lick this, an dim tired of all ways being the one that's "too much" or "not enough".

I tried. I tried for that girl. I love her. I loved her more then any girl I've ever loved. And it was the longest fucking relationship I've ever kept. 1 2/3 weeks.

I'm im sick an dim tire dog it. I'm sick of feeling like I'm not good enough for them. I'm tired of trying ti be.I wnat to. I want to be that guy. But it never ends well for me.I just can't doit anymore.

But I'm not gonna kill myself either. I unfortunately j ow the value of a human life, and I'm to much of a scarlet cat to doit. In just tired. I'm tired. I don't know what I'm gonna do, but I decided in never falling in love again.

If my life has shown me one thing, t-shirts what kind Oliver guy like me gets. And if that's what love is like, then it is so not worth it. I'm just done.I'm done caring, im done trying, I'm just done.

I'm 14m, by the way, if anyone cares (no one does).

She slapped me across the face, and called me to much. And yeah, I am sometimes to much, but she said it because I was telling a story about beignets? I don't know.

So I broke up with her, cause I just feel like she doesn't value me as a person, or respect my feelings, or opinions. She's bruised my arms before. And it was just toxic. But until want her back.

She's still the most incredible girl I know. That hasn't changed. But I just don't like how she treats me, and I was already on edge, because me and her were better as friends.

But im not good at apologies. And before i g err one more comment,I don't care about the age gap, neither does she, it's legal, and that's enough for us. Or it was at least.

I really love her. I don't tell her that, and I don't tell her she's incredible, or beautiful, and honestly my whole life. I just want to fix things with her..I just don't know how.

I'm so happy to post this, it's the first thing I'm doing. But I recently just finished coding a encryption engine for FDE, and I already have the payment processed ready. All I need to do now is pick witch device to start on first.

I'm of course gonna make a version for all operating systems, but I need to make the code but that actually communicates with the OS(operating system), so let me k ow which one I should do first.

I already have a deal with a local mid-scale company for them to test it for free for 3 months and write an honest review for it on their company site, and recommendations to a lot of other businesses/companies.

Before that of course I need about 2 more days to finish the implementation code, setup the app interface, and then I already have a cryptographic analysis that will test my encryption program.

I even got my parents on board with it, sorta, if I can prove people will pay for it, which I'm pricing it at $3/month. So all the publicity will hopefully build the waitlist, and I'm looking for at least 25 people on the list, then it'll take another 2 hours or so to register the business, open a business bank account, and that's it

It should be ready in about 2-3 months! And people said it would take Bout a decade at least. Man, if any WAIT for the analyst to review it.

Me and her have only been dating for about 3 days, technically 4 now, and I think I'm doing okay. But I'm probably gonna step back from trying to act romantic.

Me and her don't hang out as much now, we don't laugh as much, and theirs a weird kind of expectancy between us. But when we were just friends, we hung out all the time, laughed and fought and told each other jokes; I miss that.

I just don't want that to change, just because we're dating. I don't want to label us if it means acting like this. Because she fell for me because of how I was before, and that's why I fell for her.

That obviously means we work better as friends, but we still love each other in the romantic way, so what about dating while acting like friends?

That means we won't have to be awkward around each other, and we can focus on building a genuine desire for each other, without the weirdness between us.

Were also not planing on kissing, because she's two years younger. Their will be plenty of time for that when we're older, but for now we can just keep in genuinely simple.

Do you guys think this is a good approach for us? We're gonna stop dating in about 8 more days or so, for the school year, but we're gonna date again next summer. Is this the best course of action? And how do you feel about aren't kissing rule for right now?

Hi everyone,

I'm working on a cybersecurity project called WhirlWindCrypt. The goal is to create a simpler, more accessible privacy and security platform focused on protecting user data.

The reason I started this project is because I noticed a gap between many existing options:

• Many free security tools are either limited, difficult for normal users to understand, or missing features people actually need.
• Many paid security products can be powerful, but they can also feel complicated, heavy, expensive, or overwhelming for everyday users.

My goal is to explore whether there is a middle ground: a security product that is powerful enough for people who care about privacy, but simple enough that normal users can actually use it.

I am currently in the planning and development stage and am focusing on building a strong foundation before attempting a launch.

The next major step is moving the project toward Rust.

Why Rust?

• Strong memory safety features that help prevent common software vulnerabilities.
• High performance for systems-level applications.
• Cross-platform potential, including Windows.
• A growing ecosystem for secure software development.

The planned architecture focuses on:

• Secure data handling.
• Encrypted storage.
• Privacy-focused features.
• Reliable API connections.
• A clean and maintainable codebase.
• Professional review and testing before any serious release.

I am looking for:

• Rust developers willing to give advice.
• Cybersecurity professionals willing to provide feedback.
• Experienced developers interested in reviewing architecture.
• People interested in privacy technology.

I also plan to work with a professional developer or security reviewer to help test and improve the project. My goal is not to rush a product out, but to learn, improve, and build something responsibly.

I am currently building a waiting list to see whether there is real interest and whether this solves a problem people actually have.

If you have experience with Rust, cybersecurity, privacy tools, or building software products, I would appreciate your feedback.

Thank you!

Hi everyone,

I'm working on a cybersecurity project called WhirlWindCrypt. The goal is to create a simpler, more accessible privacy and security platform focused on protecting user data.

The reason I started this project is because I noticed a gap between many existing options:

• Many free security tools are either limited, difficult for normal users to understand, or missing features people actually need.
• Many paid security products can be powerful, but they can also feel complicated, heavy, expensive, or overwhelming for everyday users.

My goal is to explore whether there is a middle ground: a security product that is powerful enough for people who care about privacy, but simple enough that normal users can actually use it.

I am currently in the planning and development stage and am focusing on building a strong foundation before attempting a launch.

The next major step is moving the project toward Rust.

Why Rust?

• Strong memory safety features that help prevent common software vulnerabilities.
• High performance for systems-level applications.
• Cross-platform potential, including Windows.
• A growing ecosystem for secure software development.

The planned architecture focuses on:

• Secure data handling.
• Encrypted storage.
• Privacy-focused features.
• Reliable API connections.
• A clean and maintainable codebase.
• Professional review and testing before any serious release.

I am looking for:

• Rust developers willing to give advice.
• Cybersecurity professionals willing to provide feedback.
• Experienced developers interested in reviewing architecture.
• People interested in privacy technology.

I also plan to work with a professional developer or security reviewer to help test and improve the project. My goal is not to rush a product out, but to learn, improve, and build something responsibly.

I am currently building a waiting list to see whether there is real interest and whether this solves a problem people actually have.

If you have experience with Rust, cybersecurity, privacy tools, or building software products, I would appreciate your feedback.

Thank you

I have trust issues. Like, full on, stuttering, shouting down, hitting my face, severe trust issues. I can't ask for help. I can't tell anyone the truth. An did can't keep hiding.

I've always been closed. People used to think I was shy. But then it kept growing and growing, in till I don't trust anyone to know my full life, and definitely not my emotions.

I've tried. But I can't find the words to express myself, from fear of sounding like I'm making it up, or being dumb, or sounding insane. I chat discuss how I want my father to respect my choices, cause I chat say 1 sentence to him about myself.

When I have huge news to share, I share it in one sentence, and never again. when I want something, I never ask. When I'm scared, I suck it up. When I complain about something, I let it get dismissed.

My family never paid much attention to how I was really doing. I'm the middle child, so I guess social media is right, and I was destined to be alone. My older sisters are drama magnets, and super popular.

My younger brother has a learning disability and speech impairment. And I'm the strong one. I'm the one they call to move the t.v. or the couch. I'm the one that take shout all the trashes, builds all the stuff, and I'm supposed to be self sufficient.

But I'm not. I can do all that, and I am strong. But not mentally. I never asked for any of it, I never complained. I'm the kid who got punished and spanked for stuff my little brother did. the person everyone asked to take the fall.

When something goes missing or gets broken, I'm the one they ask first and when they finally see that it really wasn't me, I still don't get an apology. When my dad was gonna spank me for eating his chocolate when I was 8, my mom admitted she did it.

Did I get an apology? No. I got a: "your lucky your mother saved you". When they ask if they've ever lies to me, they did, in a way ill NEVER trust my dad:

When I was younger, my brother broke picture on the shelf. They blamed me. They said I'd get a spanked if I didn't confess. I told them I didn't, an sky dad said he had a camera and was gonna check it. I said go ahead.

He came bAck, spanked me so hard I couldn't sit, and grounded me for a month. That when I broke. He had completely lied to my face, just so he could punish me. And that doesn't help.

No one ever asks how I'm doing, except in that fake way where they only want a one word answer, and my parents get exhausted the moment you say your day was bad. I hate them, and I have very right to.

But I chat tell them. I chat tell my siblings. I chat tell ANYONE, because it's not in my nature, an sits not something I could do on my own, facing someone. I'd rather get shot then express my emotions, and I have a intense fear of death too.

I've never considered suicide, cause I know that one day I can have an epic revenge, but I chat if I'm dead. That's what I need not closure: payback.

But it's not in my nature.

I have trust issues. Like, full on, stuttering, shouting down, hitting my face, severe trust issues. I can't ask for help. I can't tell anyone the truth. An did can't keep hiding.

I've always been closed. People used to think I was shy. But then it kept growing and growing, in till I don't trust anyone to know my full life, and definitely not my emotions.

I've tried. But I can't find the words to express myself, from fear of sounding like I'm making it up, or being dumb, or sounding insane. I chat discuss how I want my father to respect my choices, cause I chat say 1 sentence to him about myself.

When I have huge news to share, I share it in one sentence, and never again. when I want something, I never ask. When I'm scared, I suck it up. When I complain about something, I let it get dismissed.

My family never paid much attention to how I was really doing. I'm the middle child, so I guess social media is right, and I was destined to be alone. My older sisters are drama magnets, and super popular.

My younger brother has a learning disability and speech impairment. And I'm the strong one. I'm the one they call to move the t.v. or the couch. I'm the one that take shout all the trashes, builds all the stuff, and I'm supposed to be self sufficient.

But I'm not. I can do all that, and I am strong. But not mentally. I never asked for any of it, I never complained. I'm the kid who got punished and spanked for stuff my little brother did. the person everyone asked to take the fall.

When something goes missing or gets broken, I'm the one they ask first and when they finally see that it really wasn't me, I still don't get an apology. When my dad was gonna spank me for eating his chocolate when I was 8, my mom admitted she did it.

Did I get an apology? No. I got a: "your lucky your mother saved you". When they ask if they've ever lies to me, they did, in a way ill NEVER trust my dad:

When I was younger, my brother broke picture on the shelf. They blamed me. They said I'd get a spanked if I didn't confess. I told them I didn't, an sky dad said he had a camera and was gonna check it. I said go ahead.

He came bAck, spanked me so hard I couldn't sit, and grounded me for a month. That when I broke. He had completely lied to my face, just so he could punish me. And that doesn't help.

No one ever asks how I'm doing, except in that fake way where they only want a one word answer, and my parents get exhausted the moment you say your day was bad. I hate them, and I have very right to.

But I chat tell them. I chat tell my siblings. I chat tell ANYONE, because it's not in my nature, an sits not something I could do on my own, facing someone. I'd rather get shot then express my emotions, and I have a intense fear of death too.

I've never considered suicide, cause I know that one day I can have an epic revenge, but I chat if I'm dead. That's what I need not closure: payback. My two older sister had their moments, an dmy mom didn't handle it well at all. Now it's my turn.

But it's not in my nature.

Honestly, I'm scrambling. She expects me to say I love you to her, be thoughtful, be some great guy... but I'm not. I've only said I love you to a girl once, and I I didn't really mean it.

I've given gifts before, but never super thoughtfully, because I'm just that bad at it. Whenever I hurt her feelings, I genuinely don't know what I did wrong. But the most trouble I've had is raising a hand to her.

I know how that sounds, but hear me out on this one: I was raised with two sisters I always fought with, getting dragged across the floor in tears, scratches on my chest, and having to fight back.

And I was always told to hit someone back if they hit me, and I'm a really good fighter. And I know I shouldn't hit women, but when someone hits me, I hit back instantly, even when I'm not paying attention to it.

And she's CONSTANTLY hitting and kicking me, and now I have bruises on my shoulders from it, in a laughable way of course. But it's not like I hit her hard, I don't even hit her as hard as she hits me.

I've gotten better at not doing that, but that's also my natural type of humor too, and my natural reflex, and that's hard to get rid of. I'm trying, and I am improving.

I'm also not the dominant one in the relationship, which is really throwing me off. Don't get me wrong,I actually like not having to make the big decisions, but it's also never been like that for me, so Its just a lot.

What should I do? And also, I'd like to publicly state that we are not kidding, being psychosocial, or hanging out unsupervised. But we're okay with that. We're still figuring out the age gap, but that's fine with me.

I just don't know what I'm doing, and just need to know how to not f things up with her. She deserves better, and I'm trying. But maybe I'm doing it the wrong way? If anyone has ANY suggestions, I'm all for it.

Except breaking up with her. I'm sorry, but I'm not doing that. I love her to much to do that to her. I don't want another girl; I want her, and only her.

I have an idea for a new encryption protocol, technically a new application for full disk encryption, to solve the problems with current ones.

Most full disk encryption platform are the same: complicated, only works on certain device's, and free version are to buy, bulky, and hard to use in general.

That's what I wanna fix. I have a beta version ready, but I'm not looking for beta testers yet. I have the code ready, and I have Already started debugging it, but I'm still figuring out the design.

Do you very have that feeling were you thought you had prepared for it all but you still wanna white very time you start working on it?

On about her account of mine, I had made a community for 13yo+ entrepreneurs, but I kinda lost the account, which is dumb cause it just hit 11 members, though no one was posting besides one other post, and now I can't find the community or the account.

So that's why I'm making r/12yplus_entrepreneurs

This is for anyone 12-18 who want to learn about entrepreneurship, or business, and for those building startups and products, to be able to connect with others of similar interests.