u/whocantbe_moved

Now I don't even know if I should be in a relationship. Because genuinely — why the fck am I always used as a lesson and a tool for someone's character development?

Like I don't hate them at all. Just purely irritated existing lol.

I was very competitive before — but now I can't even follow my set schedules. Is this a me problem? Is it just me? 😭😭😭

If you're looking for loyalty, stability, and consistency, which of them would more likely calm your overthinking and analytical mind?

Or is it true that they would just be stuck in their own cycle of being immature and selfish?

Do we even forgive such things they call as "micro cheating" ? Nah disgusting. Is it just me?

People often say that Pisces can be the most loving and emotional. However, my ex boyfriend cheated on me during our last 2months even though he's full of assurances from me. His reason was he felt like I have less time for him so he flirted with 3 different women for fun. I was busy with my studies and I don't really understand the justification.

He even lied that his reason for breaking up is for him to focus on his career. Usual reason I guess.

Problem/Goal: Tama naman that I chose to let go this person diba regardless sa effort niya nung kami pa?

Context: I'm turning 20 and yung ex ko is 25. Weekly kami nagkikita and provider siya lagi (choice niya). We had lots of bondings pero this June, bigla siya nakipag break. He told me na "nahihinder" ko raw growth niya kasi pagdating sakin walang natitira sa kanya and di niya raw mapigilan yung mindset niya na mang spoil. (Graduating student palang siya neto)

So pinalaya ko. Pero we kept ties around kasi gusto pa sana namin hanapin yung isa't isa sa future pag financially okay na siya. Like hindi nag block or unfriend pero reacting pa rin. After one month of no contact, nakita ko sa google history ko (since naka sync yung account niya sakin) na may download na parang app for couple.

Edi syempre kinonfront ko agad. Syempre gusto ko ng sagot eh. Mixed signals kasi siya eh — inoopen niya pa account ko, nagrerepost about us, tapos lagi naka react. Then nung nagtanong ako about sa app sabi niya chineck niya lang. Then later on, may sinabi siya na wala siyang balak mag enter ng new relationship pero may "thoughts" siya na makipag one night stand kasi lustful siya.

Edi iba-block ko na sana kasi aray ansakit ah. Tapos nung ibablock na, bigla siyang naglapag ng explanation na isang buwan bago sinabi sakin. 2 buwan niya na pala ako niloloko. May iba siyang account sa isang game tapos nakipag "flirt" siya sa 3 babae. Dahil daw kuno naging busy ako sa Accountancy and pakiramdam niya wala na akong attention at oras sa kanya.

Hindi niya naman sineryoso yung mga babae pero the thought na nagloloko siya habang ako sinusubukang ayusin kami, ang lala lang. Kaya pala puro mixed signals siyang nandyan pa siya during no contact kasi raw nag iwan siya ng onting hope na magbalikan pa kami. Mapapatawad ko pa lahat eh pero yung pagche-cheat? Jusko.

Previous Attempts: N/A

I've been with a Gemini, Pisces, and Libra. I'm fcked up from all the cheating and inconsistency.

Collecting healing and moving on experiences from a break up that doesn't came from cheating. So did it take years?

I don't even know if he still cares about me 🥹

Edit: (It's a no contact from break up but he's still actively viewing stories, reacting and idk, keeps on opening my personal account since we have access to each other's account). Man, this break up is confusing me since he's the one who let go 🫩