i feel i’m gonna die soon
this feeling of dread and impending doom is taking over me—i’ve constantly had this dream-like feeling. when my day ends, and it’s night—i feel like i just woke up 1 hour ago, “how is it night already?”
i came back from a 1-day trip, and i’m laying in bed right now, and i can’t process anything. its like it NEVER happened. i know it did, of course, but it feels like it.
i dont wanna die. i dont want time to pass without me feeling anything. this dream-ish state of mine is really messing with me.
The dream-like state started after this; 20-ish days ago, i was laying in bed, using my phone. i decided to annoy my mother, and while doing so—i accidentally dropped my heavy phone, and its corner hit me on the temple of my head. ow. but, yeah, the dream-like state and sleep anxiety started after this. idk if its called a temple, its the soft part on the side of everyone’s head. sleep anxiety also started after this.
a month or two ago, i felt like i had this heart problem, i was so insistent on it. i cried myself to sleep every night over it. my parents knew it was just a muscle pull. we went to a doctor—it was indeed just muscle pull and acid refelux.
PS: i have high anxiety—sleep anxiety comes along with it. I also get panic attacks. i’m 16.