u/wolfiiee_

dk if this is the right place to post this or not. I'm 18 rn and preparing for an entrance exam. I asked my parents to enroll me some coaching to which they said it was too costly and then I had to do online coaching. After this I asked them for some books, to which they said it's too costly(3,999).

But after this they purchased a mattress for themselves (15,999) and when I asked them if they could get me one too they said it's too costly, the one for my bed costs 5,999. And their now mattress is much more softer than mine. I have calcium deficiency and my mattress is rock hard. Every night I couldn't sleep and my backbone and whole body hurts I never get proper rest. I asked them if I can share their room, they said no. Now they are buying a mattress for my sisters' room and they don't even sleep in another room rn as they are very young.

After this incident my parents are also buying an ac(30k). When I asked them one for me they said they don't have enough money but again they are thinking of buying one for my sisters even tho their room is attached to my parents so if my parents turn on their ac the next room will get cool too. I on the other hand live on the complete other side of house with only a water cooler to which my mother always tells me to turn off because I'm increasing the bill. I said to them it's like 40° rn how can I survive without cooler to which she said I'm an ungrateful brat.

Almost always when it's my turn, their money vanishes. Doesn't matter if I had to buy clothes, if it's for my studies, my birthday. Every single time

I hate my life I wanna cry I wanna shout and scream at them how they don't love me. I want parents who love me. My friends mother care more about me than my own mother. I have endometriosis but my mom says I'm playing games because it doesn't hurt that much. No one goes with me to hospitals I always go alone. I'm always alone. I don't like to be alone. They say my voice is like a man. They say the moles on my face look ugly and that I'm too thin. I want to be loved. My heart aches for father's love and mother's care. I want to study too but no one buys me books or tests or anything how am I supposed to compete if no one helps me in any way.

Idk if this is the right place to post this or not. I'm 18 rn and preparing for an entrance exam. I asked my parents to enroll me some coaching to which they said it was too costly and then I had to do online coaching. After this I asked them for some books, to which they said it's too costly(3,999).

But after this they purchased a mattress for themselves (15,999) and when I asked them if they could get me one too they said it's too costly, the one for my bed costs 5,999. And their now mattress is much more softer than mine. I have calcium deficiency and my mattress is rock hard. Every night I couldn't sleep and my backbone and whole body hurts I never get proper rest. I asked them if I can share their room, they said no. Now they are buying a mattress for my sisters' room and they don't even sleep in another room rn as they are very young.

After this incident my parents are also buying an ac(30k). When I asked them one for me they said they don't have enough money but again they are thinking of buying one for my sisters even tho their room is attached to my parents so if my parents turn on their ac the next room will get cool too. I on the other hand live on the complete other side of house with only a water cooler to which my mother always tells me to turn off because I'm increasing the bill. I said to them it's like 40° rn how can I survive without cooler to which she said I'm an ungrateful brat.

Almost always when it's my turn, their money vanishes. Doesn't matter if I had to buy clothes, if it's for my studies, my birthday. Every single time

I hate my life I wanna cry I wanna shout and scream at them how they don't love me. I want parents who love me. My friends mother care more about me than my own mother. I have endometriosis but my mom says I'm playing games because it doesn't hurt that much. No one goes with me to hospitals I always go alone. I'm always alone. I don't like to be alone. They say my voice is like a man. They say the moles on my face look ugly and that I'm too thin. I want to be loved. My heart aches for father's love and mother's care.I want to play piano or guitar or dance too. I want to study too but no one buys me books or tests or anything how am I supposed to compete if no one helps me in any way.

I scored around 110 in 2025, it was my first attempt. I scored above 90% in my boards. This year I was scoring around 450 to 480 in neet then in re neet I am scoring 380 to 400 something. I slacked a lot. I thought that - wow maine bina padhe 110 paa liye toh last ke 2 3 months parh ke gmc mil jayega. But I was wrong I'm sorry for my delulu. Do you think if I study properly this year I'll be able to crack neet? Do you guys believe in me? Will you all be proud if I cracked neet?😔🥀🙏🏻 i'm not joking guyz I'm on the verge of bawling my eyes out

I'm scoring around 380 to 400 in re neet. I know it's bad but I also didn't study whole year it's all my fault and I only blame myself for it no one else. I scored above 90% in my 12th thru ICSE board so I was very proud of myself that I will be able to complete everything in like 2 3 months before exam. Sorry for my delulu. But now I really wanna prepare good. But I'm like really poor. Like I'm not poor but my parents won't spend money on me. I'll share a yakeen 2.0 with one of my friends. What books do you suggest I should opt for? Any modules? Test series? Help me plan and tell me what to avoid and whats absolutely necessary to do. Tysm

Recently my father's foot broke, so naturally some of his friends came to see him and then my parents said to them they wish they had a son as he would take on the job for the man of the house. We live in a small family with my 2 younger sisters, me, and my parents. My father is the sole earner. My sisters are much younger than me and they had them in expectations to have a son.

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So since my father's leg broke I have always managed everything and earlier too I used to manage things but now I have to do more. The day his foot broke I took him to hospital, carried him everywhere even tho he's like twice my weight. His foot broke 10 days before the most important exam of my life. I took him to the hospital thrice because he was not satisfied with the treatment of the previous hospitals. Then everyday I go grocery shopping, I manage my father's business as he's on strict bed rest, apart from this I clean my house too which is 2 storey. And cook meals for 1 time too since my mom was sick. And just 2 days ago I had to go to the hospital at 2am because he wanted painkillers to ease the pain. I do more than I can, I have my exam Tomorrow and today I'm writing this teary eyed. After all this I do they still ask for a boy. I always tried to be like a "man', never wore feminine clothes growing up, never wore makeup growing up, even pushed myself to do more physical work than I can, just so I can be the " boy" they always wanted.

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My mother said to my father's friend that she wished she had a son, if she had a son everything would be at ease, he would take him to hospital and help him manage his business, and most importantly "be the man of the house". Naturally I was very disheartened and then when the guests left I asked my parents that why do you want a boy am I not enough don't I do everything to which they replied the reason we want a boy is because of you only, she told me I speak too much and too loudly nd bluntly, and if she had a son he would have slapped me across my face and made me stay in my room. This happened yesterday but I'm still feeling very bad I'm unable to study not tomorrow is my college entrance exam. I'm only 19 but I alr hate my life I wish I was a boy.