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Not made with FamiTracker but I did my best to make it NES accurate. To cite my sources properly this is based off the version of Beach Life-In-Death on Songsterr so don't like get mad at me because I see it says no plagiarism in the rules so yeah I used something as a starting point.

I think it's pretty ok

So basically I feel innately incompetent and incapable, like I just can't be an adult at all. So, I gather knowledge about music and movies (partly because I am actually truly interested in them) in order to have some way to interact with people and to show that I actually am aware of things in the holes that I can get my needs met through them.

The thing is, I very much hate that I do this. I wish I could just be able to be an adult, but I feel inherently unable to do adult things. Like, a part of me hates having money at all because money means expectations.

I also very much want to be loved. I want people to find me cute and pretty and compliment me all the time and take care of me, so I try my best to look nice and hope my hyperfocus on music and movies will make people like me.

When conversations aren't in a field I'm interested in though, I withdraw emotionally and just kind of wait around to see if they might start coming towards something I am interested in.

I am very distractable and hate having responsibilities because I'm worried about how drained I'll be and about showing that I am super incapable. It's a big self fulfilling prophecy.

In the spoiler text is the type, instinctual variant, and tritype I currently think I am, but I am interested in counterarguments of types you guys think might fit me better as well as for why these types don't fit me. Also feel free to ask me questions to clear up anything you want to clear up.

Core type: >!6w5!<

Instinctual variant: >!SP/SX!<

Tritype: >!629!<

Note that I'm the sorta person where the instinctual variant means that all three types in the tritype are that instinctual variant, so my heart, head, and gut fixes are all the >!SP!< subtype. That is kinda just how I enneagram so yeah.

So basically I feel innately incompetent and incapable, like I just can't be an adult at all. So, I gather knowledge about music and movies (partly because I am actually truly interested in them) in order to have some way to interact with people and to show that I actually am aware of things in the holes that I can get my needs met through them.

The thing is, I very much hate that I do this. I wish I could just be able to be an adult, but I feel inherently unable to do adult things. Like, a part of me hates having money at all because money means expectations.

I also very much want to be loved. I want people to find me cute and pretty and compliment me all the time and take care of me, so I try my best to look nice and hope my hyperfocus on music and movies will make people like me.

When conversations aren't in a field I'm interested in though, I withdraw emotionally and just kind of wait around to see if they might start coming towards something I am interested in.

I am very distractable and hate having responsibilities because I'm worried about how drained I'll be and about showing that I am super incapable. It's a big self fulfilling prophecy.

In the spoiler text is the type, instinctual variant, and tritype I currently think I am, but I am interested in counterarguments of types you guys think might fit me better as well as for why these types don't fit me. Also feel free to ask me questions to clear up anything you want to clear up.

Core type: >!6w5!<

Instinctual variant: >!SP/SX!<

Tritype: >!629!<

Note that I'm the sorta person where the instinctual variant means that all three types in the tritype are that instinctual variant, so my heart, head, and gut fixes are all the >!SP!< subtype. That is kinda just how I enneagram so yeah.

the guitars start playing together around 0:50 in if you just want to cut to it