I sh on the underside of my left arm, and right now there are two large bandages there.
It's hot today and I haven't worn short sleeves all year besides once, but I don't know what I would say if someone asks again.
What would I do if someone asks? Thanks
any predictions or is it totally unknown?
Backstory: my family doesn't struggle financially but my dad is EXTREMELY controlling of money. his word over anyones, even over my mom's money.
when i was younger, my dad would almost never buy me anything. I can count all the times he bought me a toy or anything of the likes on one hand. i think because of this, I started pocketing small things I just wanted. Never got caught.
everything escalated a ton in around 5-6th grade. i started going to this one large company store and would frequently shoplift there since i lived so close. and from then on, its only gotten worse. now i bring a large bag almost everywhere and this sounds stupid, but i cant control my shoplifting urges. its like something guilty telling me i HAVE to take 5 things and need to meet the quota before leave the store. i also feel this wave of satisfaction whenever i shoplift. i count up the prices and feel like ive saved money
im in 9th grade now but i remember for the first time in 7th grade when i thought to myself how I seriously needed to stop shoplifting. but to this day I still can't. i know this is literally a crime but even outside of this aspect my life has been getting worse, and i feel like im shoplifting to cope?
i don't know how to stop and feel like i can't talk to anyone. i have no close friends and feel like i obviously can't talk to my parents about this. i also am too scared to talk to the school counselor about this, but i really want to quit and don't know how
i just traded everything i had for these dango penguins. Im planning on giving them to my friend who would love to color them, but neither of us have paint sealers. if you have 1 or 2 spares laying around, they would be greatly appreciated!! thank you!
I heard one of them is extremely hard. Im practicing responses for those hypothetical ish questions. is just knowing ur code well enough good enough to answer the really hard frq?
Happened a minute ago. i was sitting in the library, studying, when a random lady walked up to me and asked if i was a Christian. I said no and she proceeded to say "well, come to Jesus" and "you're missing out".
i dislike religion, but I don't say anything about it out loud; its not for me and people can believe in whatever they want. this low key pissed me off; I'm here minding my own business and you have the audacity to push your dumb beliefs on me? smh
Happened a minute ago. i was sitting in the library studying when a random lady walked up to me and asked if i was a Christian. I said no and she proceeded to say "well, come to Jesus" and "you're missing out".
i really dislike religion but i don't say anything about it out loud; its not for me and people can believe in whatever they want. this low key pissed me off; im here minding my own business and you have the audacity to push your dumb beliefs on me? smh
9th grade; failing math and have a lot of missing coding assignments. For a while now I haven't felt any motivation to do anything.
When I used to be extremely smart and top in most subjects, I barely gave myself room for mistakes and always strived to do well. I wanted approval so bad but my parents never really acknowledged anything I did. Ever since I was really young my dad would fatshame/beat me up/say really nasty shit to me. Even in elementary he often told me to kms/cut my arms off or just other generally gruesome crap.
I only started sh in 7th grade but by 8th grade I really believed I would just end up kms and that nothing mattered. My grades have just been freefalling and I dont have anyone im close to. I've built bad relationships with my teachers and just feel like it's hopeless and I have nothing to live for. I've been reassuring myself that im gonna kms anyways so it really won't matter in the end but even now everything still kind of sucks
Currently 14f bi with a very strong leaning towards girls. From 5th grade to 9th I went from having a way stronger attraction to guys to now having a way stronger attraction to girls. Only one guy I feel attracted to and honestly if I never met him I'd be positive I'm lesbian.
Over this period of time, everything got worse for me. I started sh in 7th and overtime I went from being the top student in most subjects to now failing math in 9th grade and having b's in everything else. My relationship with parents have only gotten worse and after moving before 8th, have barely made any very close friends and have nobody irl to talk to.
This sounds bad and im not sure why but I feel like in my mind, smaller voices are telling me that not only am I doing horrible at school+don't have any close friends, I also self harm, am depressed and I feel like I tie everything with being LGBT. I just feel such a deep regret for what my life's become. I don't know why I think like this, I'm obviously not homophobic but for some reason I just tie all my failures with being LGBT. there's no correlation and i dont know if its because i used to see dumb stereotypes online but often I find myself feeling so frustrated that I turned out this way
When I was younger my mom would (not super frequent) tell me about achieving in life and school, as well as finding a guy with all these standards she listed. I feel like I'm failing in everything.
For context I've been free falling in school (9th grade) and have ap computer science exam on Thursday.
I have so much uncompleted mini quizes and barely started practicing the important writing section of the test. I feel so frustrated with myself. I feel like ive fallen so behind and im going to flunk this test (which is funny given this is probably the easiest or one of the easiest aps).
I've relapsed a ton this past week. I don't want to do this but I really have to study this next day and a half. I feel like I'm using my bad mental state as an excuse but I'm really really considering skipping school tomorrow to study in the school library (where I can focus). I can't believe I've been relapsing over this But yeah
only regret is that i had to trade away my flaming fox which i loved, but otherwise im pretty happy!! parrot is so cute
